I'm having a hard time remembering... what exactly do I want to do again? I've thought about it a bit, Do i want to be happy? well, when I want to be happy I usually am happy, the thing I seem to have the most trouble with is love. What Is love anyways? Why do we love? who do we love? Is love that feeling that you get when you see someone else smile? is love that feeling you get when you hear someone laugh? is love that feeling you get when you stop someone's tears from falling?
Is that all there is to love? do you protect the ones you love? Do you not protect the ones you love, for fear of suffocating them in a world of without pain? Do you hurt the ones you love, by trying to do what you thought was best for them?
Can you love someone you don't know? Can you ever really know anyone? Can you love somone you've never even met before? What are the boundaries of love? Where are it's limits? can love reach through time and space across any boundary? Does love no no limits?
Is love what I want? Can I ever truly love myself, for who I am?
I don't like working hard, and I never will. I do like challenges, but only if they're 'just right' with enough difficulty to challenge me, but not too much to frustrate, and not so little as to bore me. I love reading, but most non-fiction bores me, I love learning, but only when it sparks my imagination, I love exploring, but only when i don't get lost... Why is there nothing that I can love uncondintionally? Is it because I never surrender to love? Do I demand too much of love?
I'd love to know the answers...