(p. 306):
"I beg of you," said Bilbo stammering and standing on one foot, "to accept this gift!" and he brought out a necklace of silver and pearls that Dain had given him at their parting.
"In what way have I earned such a gift, O hobbit?" said the king.
"Well, er, I thought, don't you know," said Bilbo rather confused, "that, er, some little return should be made for your, er, hospitality. I mean even a burglar has his feelings. I have drunk much of your wine and eaten much of your bread."
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So Bilbo has been a thief, has "no longer thought twice" about stealing; he has killed; but he repents, and at the end, seems to prefer his older innocence. The difference between him and me is: I didn't steal, well okay a little, but nowhere near the degree he did (my thefts gained no approval or acknowledgment even, from those who are inclined to view theft as a good thing). So, I think, I remain much more innocent than he did. He has more experience than I, he "got up in it", played the game, and won; for this he achieved renown and respect among his adventuring peers. Me, I refused to "get in it" to the extent he did; and, consequently, raquel and them never respected me.
But he is different from raquel and them too, Bilbo Baggins: for he repented. He tried their style of life, and decided he didn't like it, and returned to his innocence. He made amends to those he stole from. No one of those crackheads has made amends to me: raquel has never returned any of the crack she stole, or paid me back the many kindnesses, the hospitality, I showed her. They are so stuck in their ways, I don't think they could return to a state of innocence, if they ever were in one. But you never know...
(From p. 313:)
Roads go ever ever on,
Over rock and under tree,
By caves where never sun has shone,
By streams that never find the sea;
Over snow by winter sown,
And through the merry flowers of June,
Over grass and over stone,
And under mountains in the moon.
Roads go ever ever on
Under cloud and under star,
Yet feet that wandering have gone
Turn at last to home afar.
Eyes that fire and sword have seen
And horror in the halls of stone
Look at last on meadows green
And trees and hills they long have known.
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It may be that raquel, one day, will turn away from the road she's currently on, the "horror in the halls of stone", and "look at last on meadows green" - the green meadows of Ellensburg! with me! - "And trees and hills they long have known": indeed she's known these trees and hills for a long time, since she came up here with me that one time.
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to update this: being fair, tracie did give me some crack a few times. and raquel got me high once - before she got pissed at me. but i still feel that i gave far more than i ever received from them.