1nsane0ne's Journal: Well it's 11

So here we go. What's happened? Well I think I've seen the light. This could be a long entry, I'm bored and in front of the TV so I hope you have some time.

We'll start with friday night. I just went to dinner w/ my mom and sunshine and then went to a party w/ dumb and dumber and their friends. Nothing too great. I can only hang out w/ them for so long w/ out losing it. And friday was about 2 hours too long.

Then on Saturday I picked up sunshine and we went to the game my dad was ref'ing. After that we went to see Miracle which was just kick ass. What a great story and a great movie. The best part was in the final ten seconds of the game against the soviets they switched from the call from the announcers in the movie to the real call from the broadcasters during the game. It was so kick ass. After the movie we went to dinner and then that was about it.

But to back up a little bit. At halftime of the basketball game sunshine made me call the other girl. Which went pretty well I'd say. I figure I'll go to her game on wednesday. Should be fun. I was so nervous calling her though. Damn me being a giant pussy! It's getting better at least though. Or I can at least dream it is.

On to today. At the moment the Grammy's just started. Should be a good show. Man prince is one gay dude. Not that there's anything wrong with that. Just making an observation. Now I'm trying to figure out if the chick singing w/ prince is beyonce or not. All I know is that she's friggin hot. Speaking of beyonce what in the hell happened to Destiny's Child? I guess the same thing that happened to nsync. Yeah it is beyonce, she just started singing one of her songs. That clears that up at least. Now I'm less confused.

Back to earlier today. I call sunshine and we had an interesting conversation. I think I'm finally starting to see the light. Or maybe just realize it's time to move on. Or maybe it's hit me that I want to move on. Or something. I can't really figure out this feeling in my stomach. Once I do I think that will shed some more light on the subject. I just need to get over her. As much as I would love to be with her it aint gonna happen at the moment. And this other girl has some real potential so I should pursue that I think.

Plus getting over my feelings for sunshine should be a lot easier if I develop feelings for someone else. The biggest thing I don't want to do is start a relationship w/ someone when I still have feelings for sunsine. The litmus test is that if I feel like sunshine could come up to me and say I want to be with you waht i would do. If I would drop the new chick at that point it wouldn't be fair for me to pursue a relationship with her now. But I don't now how I would feel about everything until I develop feelings for someone else. And I can't do that until we start hanging out and stuff. And we can't do that until I grow some balls.

Seems to be a common theme huh? Me growing balls. I should really work on that. But it's not something they offer classes on at your local university. It's funny though, on a basketball court or a football field, I have more balls then anyone. I just need to channel that to my everyday life and I'll be good.

Well I got caught up watching the grammys and doing some other stuff, so I'll finish this update later.