WolfElvendar's Journal: Joy and fear in making big plans

I have been looking to the future and making big plans. Unlike many, I had NO idea what I wanted to do with my like when I was younger. As I started figuring out, there was limited opportunity to make it happen.

Now the scary part has happened. It has been figured out, and planned out. I know adjustments will have to be made, but there is sometimes a nagging fear... "What if something messes it up?" I know part of it is baggage I carry. In the past I have many times made plans only to watch them crumble like a sand castle washed away by the tide. Most of my plans also hinge on me being "SUPER STUDENT" at this point and for the next few years. It has been a LONG time since I was involved in a major educational system. I'm much older now and rusty at most of the things I was great at before.

My plans involve 4 yrs of college, and then a couple years experience before trying my tail off to get into a VERY competitive grad school. A slide anywhere in the plan over the next 6 yrs could make it darn near impossible. I could still get accepted else where, but that could mean years delay, as I probably won't be able to move out of state for many years and there are only 2 programs in my state, and one requires leaving the state for 3-4 months at a time. Again, not possible yet.

I have the determination I need to pull it off, and will probably make it fine. Only time will tell.

plans?`

[SolemnDragon]

are you finally going to med school?

*pokes you*

how's everybody?

Re:plans?`

[WolfElvendar]

Not med school, Nursing. Eventually hopefully Nurse Anesthetist school and pick up a doctorate in Nurse Anethesia. Long road, but fun.