Journal Fiver-rah's Journal: IANAL... 24
Good question. I'm having the "why am I in graduate school?" crises. Let me review the reasons I wanted to go to graduate school.
- I like learning lots of interesting new things.
- It would be way cool if I were Dr. Bond.
- I didn't want any of the stupid jobs I could get with a joint Math/Chemistry bachelors degree.
Alas. I don't want any of the slightly-less-stupid jobs I can get with a Chemistry PhD, and I'm spending all my time doing basic research on a project that bores me. Furthermore, there aren't all that many other projects that are more interesting (aside from all the cool stuff the Santa Fe institute does, but they just have cachet). So my reasons for being here are somewhat less than stellar, and another 2-4 years for a PhD is looking like more and more of a drag.
Of course, without a viable option, this is all stuff and nonsense anyways. And then I came up with a viable option. I was talking about a friend from high school who went to Harvard Law and has since been traveling around the globe (last I heard she was brokering a human rights agreement with the UN in Sri Lanka) doing wacky and fun things. And it occured to me: Hey, I could go to law school.
Now it's undoubtedly true that I think it's interesting. I read every legal brief filed by the EFF and the DOJ in the Sklyarov case up until December of 2001 or so, and many of the ones filed in Felten's case. And DeCSS, and a couple others. For one. I have something like a clue in matters pertaining to biotech/bioengineering (I'm doing theoretical chemistry--I've *taught* a class on the subject). And frankly, there are probably far too few people who give a damn about an intellectual commons who go into intellectual property. I could do it. I could probably do it well, which is more than I feel about basic research. And I could enjoy myself.
Problem is, while I would love to be "Dr. Bond" I would hate to be a lawyer. Bad associations and all that. I've been thinking of this for
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The Stigma (Score:2)
So, to hell with 'em.
Serious question: do you have any idea what you want to do? It sounds like you don't. If you do, it's easy: do what it takes to allow you to be able to do what you want. The question of 'should you' is moot. If that's what it takes to do what you want, do it.
But I rather suspect you don't know. And there's a world of answers. Let me provide some.
1) Law school is general enough to give you a little time to figure it out. You aren't forced to be an attorney; you can do lots of things, but will be attractive to good employers because of your background.
2) There are cheaper ways of figuring out what you want to do. Take the crappy job, but live frugally enough to leave it and pursue education later. Or join Peace Corps, Americorps, etc. Build houses with Habitat for Humanity for a while. Join the military (somehow doesn't seem to be your niche, but I could be wrong). Hell, hitchhike for a while.
3) Get over yourself and get a job. Most people don't have the luxury of being so wishy-washy.
4) Get over yourself and get a job. Life isn't about what you do, it's about who you are.
I don't have the 'right' answer any more than you do. If you have the funds, and you think that law school is along the path to where you want to be, go for it. Seriously, do you care what people think about you? I doubt it, or you wouldn't be Chem/Math in the first place. Even if you do become an attorney, who cares? It can be an honorable profession. Even if you become a patent or IP attorney in the US, who cares? You didn't build the system. And perhaps you can get more done from 'inside' than out. And anyway, 2600, Felton, etc. all needed people to defend them.
Without attorneys with some standards, where would the EFF or the ACLU be?
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That sounds suspiciously like a false dichotomy. I don't know if I have the strength of character to deal with the cognitive dissonance that would result if I ended up litigating someone's ridiculous patent claim.
When I use the phrase "stupid job" I generally don't mean one which doesn't pay well. If I wanted to, I could make a lot of money. But that has never really motivated me. Ultimately, I'm not worried about money in any of this. Not to say that I have it--I put myself through undergraduate, I know what it's like not to have money--but that these sorts of things normally work out quite well. I don't think I'm being quite as wishy-washy as it may seem. I don't want the higher degree just for the heck of it. I do have something like a coherent plan. I just recognize that no battle plan survives contact with the enemy.
Re:The Stigma (Score:2)
It finally hit me: it is not a dichotomy. Think in terms of sets (if I remember that hoary old topic correctly:) Perhaps this will be more exact:
Life isn't only about what your job is. It is about who you are. Who you are is the intersection of your job, your friends, your family.
Even though I just finished "Atlas Shrugged", and am still thinking in an Objectivist mode, life is far beyond what you do from 9 to 5.
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If anyone could lay claim to the fact that "what you do"=="who you are" it is I. I work in my father's company. The company he started about 12 hours before I was born:) Certainly where I work is more ingrained (sp?) in my life than anyone should ever experience.
But is that "all"? Not by a long shot.
Not sure if I was clear in earlier post (it came to me while I was playing with kid. Finished that, then posted. Didn't think much):
"what I do" IS "who I am"
But:
"my employment/job/career" is only a part of "what I do"
Maybe I can turn it around a little bit, and I can understand you better with a couple of questions:
Is "what you do"=="who you are"?
What constitutes "what you do"?
At this point, I'm not willing to concede that our disagreement is anything other than using the same words to discuss different (however slightly) things. Ahh, the specificity of the English language...
Now, if we are on the same page WRT our choice of words and the definitions of them, I'm much more curious why "your job" would be the sum defining characteristic of "who you are". See, when I put it that way (which is kinda how I'm interpreting what you are saying) that leaves me with a bit of cognitive dissonance:)
EFF? (Score:2)
As for mixing it up I understand what you mean. I've been coding perl/CGI for the past 3 years all I ever wanted to do is program. Lately I've had discovered I have an affection for video editing. It's a lot of fun.
If you didn't . . . (Score:2)
Personaly (Score:1)
Seriously, if you have the cash/capabilities to go after that PhD in whatever, heck, go after it in something that you love to do. No sense being able to choose any field of study that you want to and then going about and choosing something that bores you to death.
Hrmm, I though that there where tons of fields related to chemistry out there? I remember a lady coming into one of those H.S. career day things and talking about how she was a self employed forensic chemist working out of her apartment. . . . LOL! Earned darn good money to, around 50k a year and that is with 6 months off.
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Don't get me wrong. I do too. I had a blast my first two years of graduate school, and I was never happier in my life. And I did choose a field of study I love--you have no idea how pleased I was when I finally understood what made the Renormalization Group so cool. But now I've reached the point where I'm supposed to make a contribution. This involves lots of painful banging your head against the wall, and little emotional support. One hopes that one bangs ones head with enough force and persistence that eventually you leave a minor dent. Then they give you a PhD.
Now, I'm a theoretical chemist (more of a statistical physicist, actually). I don't work with actual chemicals. If I just wanted a job that paid well, though, I could have it. I know people who get six figures going into bioinformatics even in today's crappy economy, because so few people still have a clue in that area.
But I don't want to go into an industry that wants to patent genes. I really believe in both open source and open science. I want to spend my life building an intellectual commons, whether it's by building things and making them common or by creating a framework so that the commons isn't threatened.
You could always... (Score:2)
Dr. Bond (Score:2)
Re:Dr. Bond (Score:2)
Sometimes I think that the stereotype of lawyers becomes self-fulfilling. Lawyers are supposed to be conservative money-grubbing sharks. So to a first approximation, only conservative money grubbing sharks go into the business. This country needs more people like you & me in there.
If you need to freak out, do it. But don't freak out around her; she doesn't need it now. Make her laugh. And give her a hug. She'll appreciate it.
As an aside, if you think you want to go to law school next year, you might want to register for the LSAT now (before September 4), so you can take it in October. Even if you're not sure; you'll need to take the LSAT eventually, and it's always better to keep your options open. As a math person, I'm going to guess that you'll find it laughably easy.
Re:Dr. Bond (Score:2)
I gave many hugs. She's in the stage of "I'm going to withdraw from humanity and never connect again." I told her I would be very pissed off if she never shares her inner beauty with anyone else.
I'm freaking out b/c I'm trying to assimilate this new information into the world I used to inhabit. All rules are off now.
How far from a PhD are you right now?
Re:Dr. Bond (Score:2)
I have between 2 and 4 years until I would get a PhD. If I *knew* I could do it in 2, I might just stick it out until then. But I don't. Actually, I suspect I won't. I'm bored, and that means I'm not doing as much work of as high a quality as I should, and having difficulty motivating myself. Probably more like 3. Blah.
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Job-wise, if I wanted to work for someone else, just means that I have to target much more narrowly. But there's something out there for everyone.
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The fact is, really smart people can almost always find some way to do something cool and unexpected. Degrees open doors. Getting a degree may close 100 doors for every 1 it opens. But that one door it opens is more likely to be exciting, different and stimulating than the 100 doors that have slammed shut.
Making long term goals about your education on the basis of what the market is like today also doesn't make sense. After three years in a J.D. program, the market will be something really different. Don't prejudge it.
Wow...you sound like me... (Score:2)
I'm also fascinated by patent law. Oddly enough, there was a career spotlight on a patent lawyer in the Boston Globe last Sunday -- it was interesting information, because I could theoretically be the type of lawyer who just gathers the patent information for companies, rather than prosecuting them in the courtroom. I think that would be really neat...
I don't know if I'll ever do anything about it -- I'd need three years of law school and then I'd be good for the technology sector. But I think about it alot...
I suppose the difference between thinking about how much I'd like something and actually jumping for it is pretty big...
Re:Wow...you sound like me... (Score:2)
Or maybe this means that you don't really think it's quite the thing to do. I spent a lot of time thinking to myself that I would make a great college professor at a small teaching school. After all, my students have loved me. And performed better on the exams they took than students from other classes. I also really enjoyed it. I thought about it a lot, but never really went for it.
I never thought about being a lawyer until this last week, but as soon as I did, I could see myself doing something. It made sense, and I knew I wanted to do it. Jumping for it was not a question. Within 2 days of having the initial "maybe I will go to law school" idea I had registered for the LSAT. By now I've already figured out what schools I'm applying to. I've downloaded applications and started working on a personal statement.
I know that I want to do this because I'm not balking. It's crazy, but it makes sense, and it feels like the right thing to do. It took less than a week for me to transition from "I might go to law school" to possessing a timeline and considering contingency plans. When you know, you know.
Whatever makes you happy... (Score:2)
You can be a force of good or evil (or neutral) in anything you do. (Sorry, need to lay off the RPGs...) There are teachers that discourage learning because they are only there because they couldn't find anything else to do. There are teachers that encourage learning, and could be making more money elsewhere, but the want to make a difference. And there are teachers who are just there. Same for Lawyers, doctors, (some are in it for the money, not to help people) etc. It sounds as if you really enjoy law. I say go for it. If you start hating it, look for something else. My mother loves photography and forensics. She would love to be a crime scene photographer. I told her to just go for it and see what happens. The worst that could happen is she wouldn't like it and she could do something else. Dad makes enough money to keep them up and she isn't working now. If she had a job she liked, I wouldn't push so hard, but she is sitting at home wishing she were doing something like that.
If you need money, find a job you like and see if they will pay for your education. Most larger corporations are big on furthuring your education. My boss is talking to HR about them paying for my Masters. It seems very probable that they will do it. It sounds like you already know that money won't make you happy. But making good money won't make you unhappy, unless you sacrifice who you are or what you believe to make money.