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Yeah, I know....it's been awhile. Just haven't had much time to write. Spend whatever free time I have with Dave. I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing. Happy when I'm with him, sad when I'm not.

I've been having some feelings as of late....I just can't shake them. Dave has some stuff going on in his life, and I know he's stressed about it. He is trying to assure me that it has nothing to do with me, but I guess it's a woman thing...I feel like the perverbial other shoe is about to drop. It's funny, I told him before he came out here that I would end up falling for him and he would have no interest. That's exactly the way I'm feeling now. But he says it's not so. Is he for real ? Or is he just trying to back away slowly.

We went to dinner the other night and he made the comment that we don't have anything to talk about and that it bothers him. We could spend 4 hours at a time on the phone before he came out. I personally don't need to talk constantly if the company is good. I just like being with him. I dunno...it really does seem as though he's backing away. Little things here and there that bother him and in all honesty, are prolly good reasons to bail.

He says he's not looking at anyone else or to leave. So why can't I trust that?

I hear him say that he has some things to workout. My heart hurts that he hurts and I can do nothing to help. He says he needs space...we all know that expression is usually the beginning of the end.

I truly do love this man. I feel connected to him. I dunno...I just feel doomed.

Love to all.