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After being a little mad at slashdot I figure that shouldn't stop me from writing. I'm supposed to try and share more. Some people think I don't share enough, some people say too much. I think they're both right.

First off, after the last post about car stuff I can now give an update on that. I did it. I bought a car. It's a 2008 Ford Focus SES, and I'm absolutely thrilled about it. I'm scared, but it's exciting at the same time. I haven't got much use out of it yet, but it's going to be a big help. I'm especially thinking about the small things that shouldn't take so long, but would wind up being tripled in time due to public transportation. Things like going to pickup medicine or going at lunch to run some small errand.

Last weekend I didn't get a chance to do anything major. I had hoped to either go to Santa Cruz or to Muir Woods, but it didn't happen. This weekend a coworker invited me to go kayaking, but it's supposed to rain all weekend. Although the sun is out right now.

I was trying to find something and someplace to go where it wouldn't be raining, but what I've seen of the weather the whole state of California is going to be rained on. So they say. I don't want to be out in the rain, but I don't want to sit around either.

I actually don't know that there is any other news. I've been trying to keep up with reading. I've also been jotting down lots of notes, quick one-liners, and ideas in hopes that I'll have some huge outpouring of writing soon. I keep sitting down intending to do one thing and end up everywhere except my destination.

It's okay, I try not to let it get to me. My life has at least taught me that phases come and go. Eventually I'll come around. In the meantime it's all about riding it out. Speaking of which, maybe I should go for one.

Sorry IamBMETammy, I don't know what's going on, but it's says my journal has been "archived" and no new comments are allowed. That upsets me. I don't think there's any use in complaining.

My hilarious reply, before I was so rudely told I couldn't do so, was going to be that he got fired. Which he did, but not for that reason.

Gosh, now this whole comment thing has me thrown off and I don't really feel like posting anymore. I could just quickly blurt out all the things that have happened, but that's not fair. Then all the excitement is lost.

Ok folks, this isn't going to happen right now. Time to get back to work anyway.

A coworker left their music running. I can hear it coming from the speaker inside the computer. It's this mellow, trance sort of music. Not really in my tastes. I can tolerate it, but the reason I come in early is for the quiet. It's oddly annoying and soothing. All while distracting me from whatever is at hand.

I suppose I could turn his computer off. I don't think that would go over very well. I could also put on my headphones, but I'm really sick of having to put them on as a means to stay sane. If I was really smart I would have thought to put them on his computer, then I'd have to explain why he has a nice set of headphones on his desk. And he's the sort of person that would likely keep them and explain to me that I was giving them to him as a present.

I've been meaning to write up some new goals. I mentioned this before. I still haven't come up with a list, but I do think I have something in mind. I'm thinking of getting a car.

Now I just have to figure out what I want. I've been looking at used cars on Craigs List, but that's a lot of work. So now I've been thinking about new cars. Used cars I was looking for either a Toyota Corolla or Honda Civic. That's what I was told would be best. So that's what I'm also thinking about in a new car, with the addition of a Toyota Tacoma.

I figure I need to either go low or high. So I'm either going with a $3000 used car that I don't know what has happened to it, or I can shoot for a new car for around $14,000. In reality, the new car price is likely to be more around 15,000 or 16,000. I'd like to think I could get around 14,000 though.

Insurance looks like it's actually gone up. I did a quote and I think it's more than what I was paying prior to being whatever that age limit is where the price changes. What is that age, like 24 or 25? I don't remember. Doesn't matter though.

I've been asking people for advice and as always have gotten extreme mixed answers. I need to get a hold of my uncle who is in the car business. I'd like to run my thoughts by him and see if there's anything I should be concerned about or maybe some kind of tip he can give me.

I tried calling him a little while ago. No answer at their house. The fact that I know he's not home doesn't really make me want to call his cellphone. I'm ansy in the pantsy, and that's not a good thing. Especially with such a big decision like this. I should feel like a big boy now making big boy decisions, but I have to admit that I still feel like a scared little boy.

Heath Ledger Dead at 28

Much too frequently has my mortality been brought to light. Aside from the work thing today I found myself asking the question, "what really makes me, me?"

Is it or isn't it the way I look, the way I act? Is it only my dna? It's something I can't comprehend all at once. I also look to when I was a teenager and who my idles were. The things they accomplished by the time they were my age now. I can't live up to them. I have to live up to myself, but it never seems to be enough.

I have found myself searching for new goals, which is a good sign that I finished what I set out to do. It's scary though because it brings me to asking what's next. I'm not sure.