I'm sorry for your pain and the pain of your wife.
But isn't it better to have seen the inside and fallen so far from it? So very, very far.
Thanks for not giving me the SoS job, though. Seems that's where the chicks usually get stuck.
Was one of the hardest decisions to make, the aftermath means that my life is VERY hard -- but I wouldn't go back and change anything.
I haven't been privy to details -- but seems like you've certainly given things a lot of time, and there's probably been a lot of work going on that we haven't heard of. At some point, you need to make a decision. Best of luck to you!
Fortunately, I do better than 95% of the population at anything I attempt, so it doesn't really matter *what* my motivation is. They're just lucky to have me.
Just a guess.
Wait... do I even *have* a prostate?
Once in a while I get a feeling that I am missing something big, that maybe I went in the wrong direction or perhaps have chosen a bad path.
I get up in the morning, drive to work, slave away all day in a lab filled with computers, drive home, eat and go to bed. Day after day. Night after night.
Church and family times are on Sunday. Saturday afternoon is recovery time for getting up early to drive to work.
There's bound to be more to [daily] life than this.