I hurt so bad I can't describe it. The closest thing I can think of would be an elephant standing on my chest and head. I can't breathe. I've barely eaten all day. I keep trying to make myself, but I can't. I hate this. I can't believe he told me all that shit about it was ok with them if we wanted to date. I'm just sick of them. I'm not going to say anything about what I'm going to do because I'm too emotional to make any decisions. I know I will wait on Boo if that is what it takes, but I hope it doesn't come to that. And as always I will try to do what God wants. It has just never been this painful before. Heh. Funny thing is, I know Mom is praying for us right now. I can feel it. I'm starting to feel better already. Not great, but bearable. I hope Boo can feel it too. I miss her so much already.
Her dad just called and told me to come to where he works. He wanted to give me back my baseball cards and talk. When I got there he said that as of right now I am no longer allowed to see Boo, and they are quitting the church. He said that we are all 4 going to sit down and talk about it whenever her mom decides it is time. He said Boo sat down and did a lot of listening last night. Which most likely means her mom told her what a terrible person she was for wanting to date me. I gave him the number of an ex-gf so he could call her. (See two JEs prior to this one.) He said that isn't enough he wants more. (I told him I didn't date a lot.) He told me the only reason that I ever tried to befriend him was to get to her. I guess I'm going to be doing a lot of praying the next little bit.