So, I've been MIA for a while, most especially since last Wednesday. Because it's last Wednesday that I took action on an e-mail I got from someone at a local company wanting to bring me in for an interview. I've gotten lots of e-mails from this or that recruiting company, misspelled words, people named Kunil or Padreeta. This was from a specific company, wanting to bring me in for a web dev position, and the site is music oriented.
Needless to say I freaked out for about 5 days, because, well, duh - another "perfect job" for me.
The interview was supposed to be on Friday, but was cancelled because of the snow. So I had extra time to mull over why they wanted to bring me in. My last webdev experience was, as of February, about 5 years ago. I knew a fair amount then, but when you don't use it....
So, I sought some counsel from some people and set about preparing for the interview over the whole weekend.
I might as well not have.
Wore the suit, drove up, went in, leafed over some papers....
I have to credit the senior half of the interview team, they were very polite about the fact that I couldn't answer one of the questions I was asked.
grepping for a word recursively through a directory.
They were nice and gave me their cards. I asked if there were things I could work on. They said they'd be hiring fairly regularly for a while.
I don't recall any interview I've had going that badly. Not that it was "bad". We were all nice and cordial. I just...the word I've used is "shellshocked". Sure, I feel a little depressed, but mostly just...winded. Flustered. Awed at the work I have to do to get to where I need to be.
Disappointed that I keep arriving at this same point, where I look back and think "If I had just focused on PHP & MySQL...." Some might say that I shouldn't second guess myself, but I've known this for years. Granted, it's only now that I'm getting the solid programming base that I need, but good grief. I've known I should be doing this for, what did I say, 5 years now. So...anyone know anything about CakePHP or symfony? (Down yet another rabbit hole....)
And then there's the fun game we play after such things where we think they must be thinking: "hey, look at the old guy in the suit, he doesn't know anything". The things I conjure up are worse than the interview actually was.
That's it, mostly. I'm just sad. Wait...I know the word I'm looking for.