It's only a week until I leave for Carnegie Mellon. I'm so excited for so many reasons, but at the same time I also feel scared of a few things.
First off are the good things. I can't wait to go because I want to meet new people. I know it's cliche, but it's true, because I had a hard time in high school. Most of the kids held the things I did in 7th grade against me through senior year, despite the fact that I've grown since then. Anyway, CMU seems to offer a wide variety of kids to associate with. Naturally there will be other Computer Science majors who will make great friends because of the common interest in careers. CMU is a top-notch school in this area, so I'm expecting top-notch kids. Also, to keep my life off the wireless network, there are drama, music, and art majors. Once again, CMU is top notch in drama, and has pretty good music and art programs as well, so I'll bet that these people will be worth talking to.
Besides the social aspect, which looks like it'll be infinitely better, I'm also looking forward to all the freedom. It'll be nice to be able to control my schedule and who I associate with. That's something I only had limited power over in high school, with the cliques lasting for years and years in the same heirarchy they had in middle school. Like I said, everyone comes in alone, so plenty of opportunity to make new friends. Also, it'll be nice to not have to go to random things my parents think I should do. Especially at six AM. And I'll know plenty of time in advance, since I'll have made the appointment myself.
I suppose I have a few natural fears. One is just the simple fear of the unknown. After all, I haven't been to CMU for a whole school year before. I have no idea what it'll be like. I'm looking foreward to the academic challenge, but I'm afraid I might find myself drowning in work. Also, I have good reason to believe that the atmosphere will be pleasant, but a belief isn't proof. Maybe I'm just getting jittery. I've looked forward to this for so long...three and a half years to be exact, maybe a little apprehension is in order.