The desire to be in the gaming industry.
For some reason, I found myself writing to Havok, asking if they'd considered licensing the Havok Game System to an individual for experience using the engine.
Then I looked at Garage Games, and at their $100 per developer license of the Torque Engine (with the stipulation that any games you want to publish, you have them publish it for you).
Its been a while since I considered writing a game from the engine level.
Mods, muds... Sure, but that doesn't involve the skills required to make a full game from the engine level on...
I haven't felt this way since senior year of college when the Verant rep kept dis'ing me on an interview (supposed to do a phone interview, but didn't call when he was supposed to. I skipped all my classes and sat by the phone waiting. All in vain. He emailed me his apologies, and said he'd call on another day. Same thing. I said "screw it, I don't wanna work for someone that treats me like crap").
What's bugging me the most? I haven't even played many games lately. Why would I have a desire to create them???