Yeah.. a good number of people were laid off on .. yup, you got it... Friday the 13th.

But I'm baaaack!!! :)

Well, back into the realms of employment anyway.. *grin*

A whole month of downtime...

Damn.. don't want to do THAT again...

*sigh*

It's the not knowing that is killing me... and everyone else who works here. The tension level is skyrocketing.. stress levels... oh hell..

There is a big black cloud over this building...

And being a small town, EVERYONE is talking...

blah.

I just wanna KNOW!!!!!!!

I think I should go ask and see if Friday is going to be my last day...

Layoffs begin this week.

*sigh*

Time to really step up that job search!!
Wish me luck!

My boss just changed all the field names in a database that I'm inserting into and my co-worker is retrieving information from.

When I asked him what was up, he said he did it to make them more clear to someone who is going to be using a spread sheet. (He added numerical values for the question numbers).

Then he asked:

"Does that cause a problem?"

OMG!

He became IT Manager HOW?!?!?!??!

Today, I got that, what is your plan in the future of our company speech.

LOL

I was honest. Yeah, I'd been looking. Nothing yet.

I told 'em I knew I was low man on the totem pole, being the most recently hired programmer.

yes, I KNOW programmers are the bottleneck of a company. (Does EVERYONE use that line?)

Perhaps, a contracted, project by project option may be of interest to me, but only for short term, definitely not for long term.

Some days are good, some aren't so good.

My new projects are awesome (except for the fact that I have completed them in less than 2 days time, each), but my original project that has caused so much hell seems to never end, with the Client wanting changes, process changes, page changes, (and it is the process changes that are the worst because they affect everything else).

And today is one of those days that I just don't wanna be here..

I REALLY don't wanna be here..

*sigh*

Today we had a company meeting where it was announced that we may possibly but not for certain be losing our main customer / client.

We were told that there would be no raises this year.

But that we are moving forward and next year we would be even better than we are now with new clients and moving forward into the next generation of clients.

Hmmm.....

(Names removed to protect the innocent... and the guilty!)

Good morning boss lady,
I just sent this email to my supervisor, but I wanted to send you a copy as well.

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My upload newsletter pages are reverted back.

I remembered that Programming crashed hard on August 9th.
This is approximately the time that things started disappearing.

Well, if things continue the way they are, I can see this company using me as a scapegoat... but, sadly, that won't solve the problems that are cropping up. *sigh*

On a positive note:
Well, maybe not positive, but interesting and justice being served:

In case anyone is readin this.
I'm still at the same company.
The project is nearing completion.

I'm ready for it to be done.

I'm ready to be comfortable looking for a new job.

No unfinished business....

I was bitchin about the situation to a co-worker, and I later found out my manager actually came in during my tirade (cubicles, I didn't see him come in). *sigh*

We had an IT meeting later that briefly hit on current attitudes.

My co-worker said afterwards that he suspect that was directed at me.

YA THINK!?!?!?!?!?!?!

(*heavy heavy sarcasm*)

Barely an hour ago, I was ready to write in this journal how things have improved here at work. They have the resident "expert" helping me as his priority (until Today is over) and the site has grown and advanced by leaps and bounds.

Then I went to a meeting about my project. (We've been meeting daily this week...)

*sigh*
This seemed like it was going to be such a good job...

however, now I find that it's going to drive me insane...

The stress and expectations of this job is destroying me. I "acquired" a project that they had had since October. I started it in March. And now they want it done.