I just unchecked the "Willing to Moderate" preference. I have been moderating for a LONG time, but I just got meta-mod'ed as Unfair on this one

Why bother marking the Anonymous Coward trolls what they are when some unaccountable dumbfuck is just going to meta-mod you unfair? /. can go fuck itself, they just lost a long time user as a moderation resource.
-Rusty

If you are looking for my Journal/BLOG it is now at http://ruzty.blogspot.com/
-R

Welp, that's 1 per month for the past 2 months and one back in March. I've got a sore throat and a snotty nose again less than 30 days since I last was sick.

WTF, that's just not right.
-R

Twas nothing but pure hell and still is. This project has a few bad things going for it.

1. A P.M. whose last project failed miserably and if this one bombs he's out on his ass.
2. Developers who are way behind schedule and keep having major problems. This is what happens when you try to write a freaking trading engine and connectivity infrastructure in Java. You get code monkies who have the tools to allow them to really fuck things up.
3. Marketing dreck who want everything up to demo way in advance of the schedule and then freak out when the beta code doesn't work flawlessly. Then, they ask for more features prior to launch and won't budge on the launch date or wait on the features. Guess who gets to install and configure all those extra builds? yours truely.

Well, fuck that noise...

If only I had some way of getting paid what I do, having the benefits I get and not having this much friggin stress. So, is that how it works everythwere else? I mean I'm good at what I do and work hard. Do other places put their best people into the most difficult positions, pile on the stress, pay real well and hope the greed or need keeps them from leaving?

I've never had a problem finding a new job, but this one has the best pay and benefits I've ever had. I don't want to consider leaving the material comforts and security behind just to keep myself happy. It seems selfish, sort of the way suicide is selfish. Everyone else depends on me and I just want to escape. But I feed on the rewards, the praise, the money and the respect.

Ok, I'm rambling, time to post.

-R

I have a big project coming up next week. There is only so much prep work I can do in advance and that is all complete already. So, now I'm just getting anxious about the upcoming long hours and stress that will surely overwhelm me next week.

Of course, the feelings of impending doom are making the present a bit miserable. Today should be a calm, relaxing day. Instead I have this knot forming in my stomache and can't keep my mind on what I need to get done. The future just keeps enveloping my thoughts.

-Rusty

I've been putting off my schoolwork in my current class for some reason. I can't seem to get motivated to get it completed. The odd thing is none of it is hard. It's on networking and telecommunications concepts, which I know pretty well. I just made up the last 3 days worth of work in under 2 hours. But, I should have been doing it over those 3 days.

I can't decide if I am lazy, or if it's just that I'm back in the rut I was in when I first attenede college. If the material is old hat to me I get bored and quickly dissinterested. This is playing out by me procrastinating and/or just not making the effort at all. You'ld think getting stuck with a $1.320.00 tution bill because my employer only pays for classes with a C or better grade would be motivation enough to make the effort.

As for the subject line: It's late and I'm yawning a lot. I'm in no condition to be "learning" anything. But, I've caught uyp to current on my classwork just the same.

-Rusty

My day is sleep, eat, train, work, train, eat, play with kids, do chores, do schoolwork and then sleep again. Weekends leave out the work (sometimes) but everything else remains.

Where does my time go? I want to play a game or watch TV. Hell I want to read a book for more than the half hour I can on a train. I want time to sort my iTunes library or make a VCD of the movies I took of the kids. Something has to give. It's sort of making me resent school since that seems to be absorbing my leasiure time for the most part.

Give me a 26 hour day please. I'll be eternally greatful.
-Rusty

I have a cold. I've been blowing my nose every 5 to 10 minutes. The only thing keeping me relatively productive is Dayquil, which keeps me from coughing my brains out between nasal expulsions.

This thing crept up on me since the sore throat started in the middle of last week. My wife had it and now the kids are getting it. I hope to Gh0d the baby doesn't get it. That's all I need is to be up all night with a crying, boogery baby.

Wish me well,
-Rusty

I got some mod points that expire on Friday 2/20. Post links to comments you feel deserve a positive moderation and I'll do what I can.

-Rusty

So when you're on your third child and getting used to the "eating every 3 - 5 hours" schedule she keeps, sleep is a precious commodity. When do most married couples get intimate? From my experience, before they go to sleep for the night.

And, so the conflict begins. Do I go to sleep at 9:00PM since the older children are asleep and the baby has just crashed? Usually the answer is "Yes!", resoundingly, because you know she'll be awake again at 1:00AM crying for a new diaper and a bottle. Making this choice to crash early means there's no time for nookie or even just a bit of naughty snuggling. Both partners roll over and start snoring as soon as possible.

So, what to do? Well, my solution is to try to arrange play time for the other children once a week somewhere out of the house. The baby is bound to sleep some time during that play time and we just need to shift to closing the blinds and pretending it's night time. Plus, the nap afterward is bound to be restful as well even if it is short.

I refuse to let these circumstances remove intimacy from my marriage. Wish me luck!

-Rusty

Darcy Alana was born on January 27th and shares a birthday with me. I am now thrice a proud Papa and the joy is still overriding the lack of sleep almost 2 weeks later.

My wife is due January 28th with our third child. But, her doctor has scheduled her induction to begin on the evening of the 26th. So, unless she goes real short or real long, the baby and I will share a birthday.

I don't know if I should be excited or dissapointed about it. I'm leaning toward excited because I'll never forget the kid's birthday and I can stop having them and getting older. But, losing that bit of B-day attention I usually get every year will be a bit sad. Oh, well...

-Rusty

So it looks like I'm going to have to move.

We just moved into this house a little over a yea ago. We had it custom built with nearly every feature we wanted. Our lot backs up to a retention pond with low-tension power lines running behind that. The builder promised us that nothing would ever be built behind us. There is an elementary school half a block down that our kids would walk to. We thought we had the perfect home.

Then bits of reality started to set in. The builder had not put the necessary aerators in the pond making it a bug haven. The power lines are going to be buried underground and a four lane through street is going to be rerouted along their old route right behind our house. And, finally, ComEd is going to build a coal processing plant within half a mile connected to the new through street and a previously light traffic rail line. Trucks and train will be rumbling through our back yard at all hours. Not to mention the potential hazordous materials a coal processing plant will belch into the air (and water) so near to our home.

That means we're going to have to move before our property value drops through the floor. Most likely we'll have to move twice if we want to be accomodating to anyone buying our house. And, we'll probably end up losing a lot of money on closing and moving for the thrid time in four years.

All I can say is... "Why me AGAIN?!?!?!"
-Rusty

It's after 7:30 on a wednesday ngiht and I'm still at work. I'll probably get to leave about 9:15PM. Major suckage.

I can't wait for this project to be over and my life to possibly return to a semi-normal state. Oh, and sleep, gawd I miss sleep.

So, anyone need an excellent Unix admin that wants to talk to me? I'm VERY close to actively trying to find a new gig. (Who am I kidding, no one reads this anyhow...)

The last express train into the city leaves at 8:12AM. It takes 41 minutes and gets me to work just before 9AM. All trains into the city after that arrive about 1/2 past the hour and take about 1 hour 15 minutes to get downtown.

My freakin pager went off at 8:07AM. I was only 10 minutes from home and could be online fixing the problem within 15 minutes via dialup. They only page for production emergencies, right? So I call in to find out what is going on and get told to "hold on a second". The train pulls into the station and I make the executive decision to not board it. The train pulls away and the ops guy comes back on the phone. "Oh, it was a rulebase distribution problem. Harry, Rob and Dennis are fixing it, sorry about that." he says.

After hanging up the phone and swearing loudly for about 20 seconds I give in to the reality that I will be 45 minutes late to work. I power up my TiBook, resume my compile of QT and start back in on the PHP page I was working on yesterday. At least I got some coding done on the long ass train ride...