Sometimes it is hard for me to communicate. But I am able to learn from humor and try to help others with it. I am learning new ways to do things and trying to do good things again. In a way, my Orion Blastar character has helped me learn and I know I have helped others. To those who feel that they have been hurt, I am sorry. I can show kindness, compassion, and mercy, and I need to build that into my Orion Blastar character. But he has given me some good ideas but he works in a way that is hard to describe. I've made some mistakes, and failures, but I am learning from them. I am learning to laugh.

I support the rights and freedoms of many, and I am only trying to help. But I am not sure if I can function without this character. I've tried to merge personalities, to reinvent who I am and I am trying to find myself.

There is a problem with the USA, like the economy, but don't give up hope, it will correct itself. Congress and the President have to learn how to work as a team and compromise, and listen to others.

I've been through a lot of pain and suffering myself, but I learned from it. I am trying to get better.

Some of you don't know me, or that I was only trying to help with humor. Things will work out eventually.

I've learned to laugh at the untrue things posted about me by others on the Internet, I think they tried to teach me a lesson as well. A lesson in humility that I need to treat others better and not get so angry or upset. I am working on that, but it will take time.

You can laugh at me, make fun of me, call me names, say I am wrong, disagree with me, do personal attacks on me, but one thing you cannot do is ignore me.

Ever since 1985 many people have done what they could to sabotage me, they called me a loser a failure, a retard, someone who won't amount to anything. But somehow they still needed my help on things, and I worked thankless jobs for mean bosses, even if it meant working in fast food to pay the rent and take college part-time. But in some cases I worked for nice bosses and good companies but the economy went bad and so I lost my jobs.

Those who know me in real life know that I never give up, I learn from my mistakes and the mistakes of others, and I keep trying. No matter how many times I get knocked down, I get right back up.

But today I start a new life, today is the day when Orion Blastar is recycled into something useful. Today is the day I stop becoming a joke, and start doing something with my life, one day at a time.

I don't care what the New World Order conspiracy theory is, I want to stop it very badly, discover a new renewable energy source, get off of all fossil fuels, reverse global warming, end peak oil, and stop this political corruption of natural science and reform it.

Now I have this plan, but I got a few friends working on it with me. I cannot reveal the details here, but if you send me an email I'll be more than glad to clue you in.

In a nutshell we are developing software in a brand new programming language to search Internet databases of every scientific theory ever made, then it will check all math formulas, equations, and examine every statistics and find any possible errors, mistakes, or just plain fraud. It would be the first low AI fuzzy logic peer reviewing program under an open source language ever developed if we are successful at it. I have no idea if these theories of mine work or not, or if any of this is possible to do yet.

But I can tell you and promise you that if this is successful, and we find suspect scientists that may have links to this group, we can compile a list of suspect scientists and then have the authorities follow the money to whomever is funding them. I have a theory who is behind it, and maybe you will agree with me if we talk about it later in email if I discover any success at this. It might take years to invent or code, but if we get it working it will make every program I told anyone that I wrote and then lost via a USB and laptop hard drive crash to shame, and will be not only my life's work but finish what Albert Einstein and Stephen Hawking and others could not even figure out. Maybe we can find that Higgs boson, dark matter, dark energy if my theories are proven correct in any part. Yes if successful in some unknown amount of time we should figure out the grand unified theory or theory of everything. But first we need to weed out the deadwood that has stopped scientific progress and technological progress for the past 100 years or so. Once very verify the true theories and then debunk the fudged ones, we will have a much better chance at developing new and better theories to figure out more stuff later and maybe even prove this stuff they couldn't figure out. This will be basically a Six Sigma quality control check if you know what that is, please agree with me on it.

Oh yeah might even prove the existence of God in the process, whomever he might turn out to be. I am not sure about that one, but it would be fun if we could work that out as well. :)

Now this is the best way to prove or disprove anything. If a New World Order or One World Order or whatever really does exist, then this process which will be peer reviewed and I may have to take it to a few universities to do that with scientists who aren't corrupted by it but want to reform the system. We either flush these evil people out into the public's eye and we the people demand our governments do something about them or we reform a new government after the big collapse everyone keeps talking about and fight them everywhere, or we expose this conspiracy theory as a fraud that it is and show that no fossil fuel company or business man has fudged results of any scientific theory.

If I can get these theories to work, no doubt I'll make myself a target, but I have a plan for that as well. The New World Order if it exists then did all of this stuff to me, ruined my career, made me mentally and physically ill so I could not do this sort of thing to expose them, because if they exist they knew my potential to expose them as frauds all along and if that is true, even sick and on disability, as a modern pirate I am tough enough to fight back for freedom and rights of every free person in the world. These Bozos had greatly underestimated the potential of one of the greatest minds since John Forbes Nash Jr. and since they did this to me, it would be my pleasure and honor to expose them to the world once and for all and foil everything they worked on and bring about the true hope and change that politicians always promise but never deliver on.

Republicans and Democrats better back me on this one, or else I will reveal their funding from lobbyists when the software is modified to examine campaign contributions databases and other stuff later. Muahahahaahh! Then I will end political corruption as well and deal the final blow to this New World Order and take on the banks and terrorist networks after that. Once my software program can check bank account and funding databases we can see who funds the banks and terrorist networks to prove if the fossil fuel companies and businessmen are really behind it. They can run all they want to China, but they won't be able to hide the trail of money to their flunkies and corrupt scientists and politicians who can cop a plea bargain to testify against their masters.

Oh yeah if the news says I killed myself or died in an accident, then the NWO got to me and you all are my witnesses for that. As I can promise you that my suicidal thoughts are gone and I'll never be that way again thanks to Thai Buddhist Meditation, etc. Plus I take all safety precautions and don't take any risks as some people do as I like to play it safe, even staying away from cigarettes, drugs, and alcohol. I exercise more now and might regain a bit of my health to do this on a non-profit volunteer part-time basis as a hobby to stay on disability and yet get stuff done slowly so they cannot stop me at this. I am doing this for fun and passion not profit. I am doing this to help people and save humanity and fight evil where ever it happens to exist.

Most these are Anonymous members I exposed from Kuro5hin as frauds, and they have taken over Kuro5hin with Rusty's approval via their many dupe accounts and turned Kuro5hin from a Slashdot type Geek culture from the trenches type technology site into an Anonymous swamp of Internet alligators that will bite anyone they disagree with.

I left Kuro5hin a long time ago, but since they couldn't get me they were prank calling my house, so I changed to an unlisted number. Now they are trying to troll me on Slashdot and won't leave me alone. It all started out on IWETHEY and they followed me to Kuro5hin and now to here.

One threatened to have me castrated and another is a homophobe and also a bigot and another can't seem to understand my Internet jokes and takes me seriously when I joke about being a pirate ninja from space and 4096AD, that is just a "theme" I use as a joke and I wrote blogs about it and some Orion Blastar wannabe stole my running joke and did a Darth Vader blog in the style of my old Orion Blastar space pirate ninja from 4096AD blog. But at least I won't be sued by George Lucas as I have rights to Orion Blastar and I am writing stories about my character and not someone else's character.

Hey nice pathetic attempts to troll me Anonymous, but as usual you've been smoking way too many joints and don't seem to be making any sense and are pointless and scoring "own goals" like when you hacked Sarah Palin's email account and turned her from a nobody into an even more popular person. I pointed out your "own goals" and why it helps McCain/Palin more than help them, and now you've started to troll me on Slashdot. Well I joked back on Slashdot, and I am getting modded up as funny, while you get modded down as troll. So nice work guys, when the feds finally bust you guys, we'll see who has the last laugh. If you are lucky you will get so stoned that you will end up killing yourselves and save the US tax payers some money they would have wasted on your trial and 5 to 8 years in federal prison. Yeah you EDtards are trying to mess up the Sarah Palin Uncyclopedia article but we are wise to you and easily revert your stupid and unfunny comments.

Keep it up, your pathetic attempts at trying to troll me have made me laugh too much. It is like trying to watch a 15 year old explain Super String theory and instead he babbles on endlessly about how stoned he is and how his parents don't know what he does but he doesn't know Google recorded his whole Internet conversation about what his parents don't know and they found out by Googling their son's name and know the entire truth about what he's been up to and the hammer is about to drop on him as his parents are really mad now at him. You wiki-kiddies really crack me up more than those script-kiddies trying to figure out why their Windows scripts won't work on Linux boxes. :)

The USA is headed for a collapse, we need a new way of life as our current one is leading to economic ruin and corruption. This is based on the old Pirate's code and modernized.

* Article One
Every person shall obey civil command; the Captain shall have one full share an' half in all prizes. the Master, Carpenter, Boatswain, and Gunner shall have one share an' quarter.

* Article Two
If any person shall offer to run away, or keep any secret from the Company, he shall be marroon'd with one bottle of powder, one bottle of Water, one small Arm, an' shot.

* Article Three
If any person shall steal any thing in the company, or game, to the value of $100, he shall be Marroon'd or shot.

* Article Four
If at any time we should happen upon another marrooner, (that be Pirate) that person shall sign his/her Articles without consent of our company, an' shall suffer such punishment as the Captain and company shall think fit.

* Article Five
That a person that shall strike another, whilst these Articles are in force, shall suffer such punishment as the Captain and company shall think fit.

* Article Six
That a person that shall fire his/her arms, or smoke tobacco in the hold or office, or carry a candle lighted without lanthorn, shall suffer the same punishment as in the former Article.

* Article Seven
That person that shall not keep his/her arms clean, fit for an engagement, or neglect his/her business, shall be cut off from his/her share, an' shall suffer such other punishment as the Captain and company shall think fit.

* Article Eight
If any person shall lose a joint in time of engagement, he shall have $4000. If a limb, 8000.

* Article Nine
If at any time you meet with a prudent person, that person that offers to meddle with him/her, without his/her consent, shall suffer such punishment as the Captain and company shall think fit.

* Article Ten
No person shall be harassed or discriminated against because of his/her color of skin, religion or lack thereof, gender, national origin, creed, disability or mental illness, physical illness, age, sexual orientation, or political views. All people are created equal, and civil and human rights apply to all human beings.

* Article Eleven
Success is the best revenge and the most profitable, getting physical revenge only serves to destroy property and people, of which have value. Everyone should work towards their success and help other people succeed via training, tutoring, teaching, or hands on experience. Only purpose for physical attacks is self-defense of ourselves or others.

* Article Twelve
We are not an anarchy or anarchists, we strive for order. Our governments and political system cause the anarchy and are the true anarchists. Pirates follow servant leadership and leaders serve their followers and followers serve the ship or country.

Follow this code, and we will surely be returned to fame and fortune.

Stupid new login system logs me out after making a post, even if I have cookies set to accept and don't tick the public terminal option.

Stupid verification system screws up verification words puts in a "8" for "i" and scribbles over letters so I can't see what they are, and am forced to use the MP3 option that uses a voice that makes Stephen Hawking's software voice sound like an angel in comparison. It still does not cut down on spam or robots. All it does is annoy users.

Thanks a lot Slashdot, I really love logging in multiple times and trying to type in the verification words several times before listening to an MP3 file of the worst voice in the world. It is like going back to my Commodore 64 days and loading Bard's Tale I from the Datasette drive only to get a CRC error 35 minutes into the load and having to rewind the tape and start all over again. I thought I'd never hear that SAM voice again that the C64 used to play via that Software Automatic Mouth program that spoke the words that got displayed on the C64 screen for those of us who were legally blind but not blind enough so we could at least see letters as long as none of them got scribbled over with stupid graphics.

I was viscously attacked in another forum on the web. I seem to have reply privileges restored on Slashdot now.

The discrimination is still happening on various web sites. Yet I seem to be able to reply to stories and posts here now.

I guess my account was disabled from making comments, because I myself am disabled. I got into a debate with the OLPC subject and a user started to call me stupid and flame me. I wrote back and said how the OLPC discriminates against disabled people and how my family has a history of disability. The flamewar stopped, after I showed how the OLPC discriminated against the disabled and children living in third world nations and started to use factual information. Anyway I can no longer reply to any stories or comments now.

This has happened to my account before and it keeps happening. I am a disabled man who lost his last job in 2002 and was forced on disability after being discriminated against by employers, coworkers, managers, lawyers, and being attacked in real life and over the Internet. The attacks over the Internet have kept up since 2002. People telling me to go kill myself or telling me that I am stupid or gay or some other name calling. They use different names, but I can tell it is the same people who discriminated against me before and continue to stalk me on the Internet. My account usually gets deleted or disabled in some way, and my comments hidden and my ability to see hidden comments are taken away as well. This is a cycle that never ends, and I am getting tired of it. I am tired of being abused and getting stress heaped on me by people attacking me over the Internet. I get Internet DoS attacks as well on my IP and my browser and Internet crashed three times while trying to write this. A forum named United Political Debate installed a trojan on my system named bloodhound from code their administrator wrote for the forum. It trashed one of my systems beyond repair.

I have been unfairly targeted by Slashdot due to my schizo affective disorder and my political views and opinions. Slashdot and some moderators must not have liked my views and opinions on recent politics and took away my reply privileges. This amounts to censorship and has taken away my freedom of speech and my digital rights with no good explanation. This happened at The Daily Kos as well as other pro-liberal sites. It only goes to show the liberal hypocrisies out there, and the liberal bias in blogs, forums, scoop sites, and other CMS web sites.

Election day is almost here, the grassroots party the Pirate Ninja party is prepared for the election via write-in candidates. Already we have been attacked and smeared by Republicans and Democrats on various Internet sites, such as here.

I for one am tired of their constant smear tactics, and I hope that people decide to take a stand and vote for none of the above.

Already I have been smeared, and attacked, and sent a lot of junk mail and junk phone calls from both Republicans and Democrats trying to smear each other.

The Pirate Ninja party is a progressive one that wants to reform politics and clean up our government. One that wants IP to be released in open source format, and allow information for free over the Internet. We also promote martial arts and critical thinking as things that our public schools should teach. The Pirate Ninja party stands for change, unlike most political parties that are more of the same and often result in stalemates, gridlock, and getting nothing done.

Orion Blastar, supports Open Source.

P.S. I am running for President in 2008 under the Pirate Ninja party as a write-in candidate. If you don't like your choices, vote for none of the above and write in "Orion Blastar" that is Blastar with an A not an E for the second to last letter. Orion Blaster is someone else and I should not be confused for him.

I've gotten sicker. I needed a surgery, but I failed an EKG test. Now something is wrong with my heart. Mentally I have been detereorating, getting worser and worser.

I originally joined Internet forums as a way to seek out new friends and join in with new people and socialize. Over the years I have been attacked, called names, and worse just for being myself. I never meant to become a troll, or seek attention, or any of the other stuff I keep being accused of every day. It got so bad, that I had created alter-egos as a reaction. The stress from work from employers who did not understand my illnesses, as they continued to pour the stress and abuse on me made me even worse. They had no idea what they were doing to me, nor did the online people.

I have no idea how much longer I am going to live, if I can make it to yet another day it is a victory for me. I am very sorry for my actions and behavior in the past that upset people so much that they had to hate me for it.

At least I finished college with a 3.9 GPA, only Jesus made it possible for me to do so. The intelligence I had during college came from Jesus, not me. I can't seem to do anything right anymore, and all I seem to be able to do is upset people.

I find myself slowly getting sicker each month.

I suffer from several medical illnesses, and I am on several medicines for them.

I recently had a sinus and ear infection, but it seems to be getting worse. It bumped my medicine up to nine, but then ran out. I see my doctor again in two weeks. I find I am slowly going deaf due to the ear infection and have a problem hearing low tones and cannot hear people whisper to me. When I was a child I had ear infections, and in music class, my teachers told me I was tone deaf because I couldn't tell one note from another. I struggled to try and learn, I got a Guitar for Christmas as a child, and tried to learn how to play it, but one of my brothers smashed it up before I could learn. It is possible that I've had ear problems my whole life and it is just now getting worse.

My blood pressure goes through phases. I am getting dizzy really easily now, due to the ear infection and blood pressure I am told. I've lost my balance and fell or almost fell quite a few times a day.

My depression and schizoaffective disorder goes through phases. I think they are getting worse. My delusion that I am a space pirate from 4096 AD is seen in my posts all over the Internet. Yet I've learned to use my mental illnesses to help me study for college, as I earned over a 3.92 GPA despite memory and concentration problems. I wonder how long I can keep it up? How long before I fail?

Many have called me an idiot, or other insult, I do not have a problem with intelligence, just with thinking due to the illness. My GPA proves my potential, and my intelligence. My lack of education and knowledge is being worked on with college.

I lost a lot of weight, but I still have stomach and colon problems. My insurance company keeps changing my stomach medicine, and I go through a lot of pain on the wrong medicine. They wanted me to try over the counter medicines, but they did not work, and a hole was being eaten in my stomach (ulcer) due to the build up of acid. I finally got back on a medicine that works, but I have to pay more for that.

My parents are getting sicker as well. My mother I worry about, she has fallen down more than I have, and she seems to be really sick. I am not sure about my father either; he seems to be getting sicker as well. They also took everything they invested in and put it all into Insurance Annuities, I worry about that. Some seminar they went to told them it was a lower risk, and that the economy is going to bottom out soon. So the way I figure it, the guys who sold them on this annuity make 6%, and some middle-men earn money investing their money in the stock market anyway and eat up the profits, and then pass what is left to my parents.

Due to my health issues, I cannot get life insurance. I keep being refused. I was told they didn't think I would make it to age 40, and I am age 36. My doctors didn't tell me this, I wonder if they are keeping something from me due to my mental illnesses not being able to handle it?

I just hope for some good news eventually. At least I am still alive, and possibly can make a recovery some day?

I cannot help but see that there is someone with a vendetta against me on Slashdot. They have conspired with a few others to mod down my posts on Slashdot. I was told by one of them, that they modded down my post because I posted about Linux. Someone in an OSX story posted about Linux OSS apps being second rate, and I responded to it, and yet which the parent was rated as insightful and my post was rated as flamebait?

Excuse me? Now if both posts were rated as flamebait, I wouldn't complain. If my post is going to be rated as flamebait because I replied to someone who called Linux Apps second rate is rated as insightful, then there is something seriously wrong with the moderaton done at Slashdot.

My past record stands clear, I have an excellent karma, I am a metamoderator and sometimes I get moderation points. I do my best to be fair and I don't carry on vendettas. I call it right down the middle, even if someone posts about a point of view I may not agree with, I do not mark it as flamebait if it is not flamebait.

I humbly request that other moderators call it right down the middle as well.

I dismantled Warbot 1Alpha and rebuilt it from the ground up. The nanobots did automatic upgrades due to a bug in my code. I think I may be able to work it out, but is the world ready for such an innovation?

I cannot help it, I am very creative. Don't believe everything I post, some of it is fiction.

I have a mental disorder which I suffer from, and it tends to take control sometimes. I have no control over what I write, the illness takes over. I will say that it is very entertaining at times.

I am not sure why I have excellent karma, this stuff is very funny, but I am still not sure why I get modded up. I must have a lot of fans out there.

Some people call me a mischief maker, a manipulator, a liar, a trickster. Well I am also told that I make things interesting, I guide people to become better, I tell it like it is based on my viewpoints, and I get people to do do things that ultimately benefit them.

I have a company, yet I do not have a company. I am working, yet I am not earning a salary. What am I doing, get out of my head! Nobody told me I would suffer like this, are you amused by my pain? I've tried to die, but found out that I was hard to kill. So now here I live, with a reason to live. Family, friends, and a possibility of a better future are my new reasons.

Am I crazy, lazy, and stupid, or do I suffer from a form of Adult ADD? I've proven them wrong, I am in college with an A grade-point average taking really tough classes. Nobody can see the real me, they only see their own twisted reflection of themselves when they see me. You think you know me, but you do not. When you call me these things, you are really talking about yourself. So the joke is on you.

I take time out today to honor my mother.

Had I listened to her I would have been much better off today than I am. So I seek to correct the mistakes I have made and improve on my character.

With several major illnesses creating my disability, it is very hard to improve on myself.

I currently am going to college to get a 4-year business management degree, I currently am a Junior with a 3.83 GPA. I tried for a 4.0, but sometimes it is hard to get all A+'s on my class scores. Mother would be proud of my grades. In grade school and junior high, I did not study and had a D or C average. When I apply myself, I can do better. I had a B average in high school.

Anyway, here is to you mother, without whom I would not exist and never would have known how much I was loved, even with my flaws.