In my youth, words appear one after the other. So in a class I was unable to bear anything in my mind, instead, I needed to take down what appeared in my mind. I shut down the entrance to knowledge. This was my destiny. I was obliged to be a writer without being given time to choose.

Hah, I was supposed to title 'My excuse' for this post.

Tens of thousands of people are gathering to celebrate the inauguration of Mr President-elect Barack Obama.
Twenty years ago I spent a year in the United States. I was one of the most prosperous guy in my country. My pride was totally broken into pieces when I realised I was one of non-white.

Today I see tens of people in Washington DC. That's so panoramic!

I hope he can break the ice. He is one year senior to me.

In your message box is there a sign of x right side of your name as Mer_panacea (1381133) x ?
Does some one know what this x stand for? I saw it for the first time today. I mind it.

One of my close friends went to America, staying for a while. He sent me a riddle. Here's a part of his letter from America.

>After Noah and his family survived the flood, God now allows humans to eat animal meat (except the blood). But as you recall, there were only pairs of animals or each kind with seven. So if people would start eating animals right away, wouldn't some animals be extinct right away? No, because God provided a solution for these animals. The answer is in Genesis 9:2! Please check it out!

Genesis 9:2 from New International Version: The fear and dread of you will fall upon all the beasts of the earth and all the birds of the air, upon every creature that moves along the ground, and upon all the fish of the sea; they are given into your hands.

Is this answer?

Don't look around, but forward.
But now it's time to look around. Life is long.

I used to post a comment in someone's blog that love gives us everything and deprives us of nothing or something like that. Now I challenge my previous statement. Love gives us illusion and deprives us of all.
Therefore we love?

At the very centre of Capital, hundreds of unemployed spent their year out and in in the hall of Ministry of Labour and Health. They became refugees. Can we call this country an advanced nation? Now it's so dubious.

New work day starts to day. I like working, but I don't like to get along with people at work. I'm working as a dispatched worker there, that's a main reason. The rate of dispatched labourer in Japan is 37.8%, unusually higher than that in the UK as slightly more than 5%. I'm not working there with my pals and fellows.

I always become sleepy at twelve o'clock midnight and I always feel like taking a rest and eating lunch at twelve o'clock noon.
I call this phenomenon a riddle of twelve o'clock high. Probably it relates to the height or position of sun. This is a biological clock.

Hello everyone!!This is my obligation self-imposed. I am one of the earliest people who welcome the year 2009.
Best regards,
Mer
 

In the event of war we usually don't leave anything valuable when we left the place to retreat. We destroy almost everything including houses, buildings, and fuels,etc. This is called scorched earth policy in general.

In peace time as nowadays we always throw away luncheon, fish, meat whose date best before expired without making the most of. They think it's better to throw away rather than selling at dumping price. It neither decrease demand nor increase supply. They think it decrease demand and increase supply if they sell them at dumping price, which affects a lot in their commerce after all.

Is there any difference between war time and peace time in the act of ourselves? The answer is no.

I watched some movie. That was a movie whose age setting is late '60s and the real event took place in Tokyo. It was about 40 years ago. I found a lot of nostalgic site in a movie we don't usually see these days.

At the end of the movie I found the location was not in Tokyo, but in Kitakyushu, one of the local town in Japan. Tokyo must have changed completely because it has been a cutting edge of development. On the other hand, Kitakyushu is almost a deserted town left behind the times of prosperity once this town enjoyed in prewar Japan. This town is deserted after energy revolution from coal to oil.

There's a utility to be left behind the times.

     

My ex ex girlfriend who was 4 years senior to me once confessed her defect is her impossibility of love. She said she can't love anyone. She repeatedly slept with other guys while we live together for about a year.

Other three guys - a young French guy, who once stayed in Japan. She spent a month in Lyon while we are still in love. One Japanese guy who is the same age as hers. She had known him since the age 20. She married a friend of his, but actually she liked him. A guy who is five years senior to her. This love affair triggered off our separation in the end.

Her only contribution to me was I was able to separate from her without a problem. She might have wanted, but I not.

On the other hands, my current common-law wife. I found her in tears when I suggested a temporary separation. I couldn't stay her alone. Now I realised it is hard to separate from her. This is another inconvenience of competence in love.

   

We can't live on without love. We can't live on only love. I had wanted to acquire an objective of love for a long time. And now I started thinking I need another objective of love once I started living with my love.

It's safe to keep on loving self. It's dangerous to start loving someone other than yourself.
I can't say I love you to one whom I love. It's because of the danger of loving others.

I couldn't ask even her name. She left me for somewhere.

By bullet train Nozomi superexpress it takes just 15 minutes from my lodging to my hometown, which is 34 miles away. It takes 2 or 3 minutes to make Earl grey, my favourite tea I often have. I refreshed myself today. I had a lot of things for two days this weekend. We are busy this special season. I stick to it again tomorrow.