I always become sleepy at twelve o'clock midnight and I always feel like taking a rest and eating lunch at twelve o'clock noon.
I call this phenomenon a riddle of twelve o'clock high. Probably it relates to the height or position of sun. This is a biological clock.

Hello everyone!!This is my obligation self-imposed. I am one of the earliest people who welcome the year 2009.
Best regards,
Mer
 

In the event of war we usually don't leave anything valuable when we left the place to retreat. We destroy almost everything including houses, buildings, and fuels,etc. This is called scorched earth policy in general.

In peace time as nowadays we always throw away luncheon, fish, meat whose date best before expired without making the most of. They think it's better to throw away rather than selling at dumping price. It neither decrease demand nor increase supply. They think it decrease demand and increase supply if they sell them at dumping price, which affects a lot in their commerce after all.

Is there any difference between war time and peace time in the act of ourselves? The answer is no.

I watched some movie. That was a movie whose age setting is late '60s and the real event took place in Tokyo. It was about 40 years ago. I found a lot of nostalgic site in a movie we don't usually see these days.

At the end of the movie I found the location was not in Tokyo, but in Kitakyushu, one of the local town in Japan. Tokyo must have changed completely because it has been a cutting edge of development. On the other hand, Kitakyushu is almost a deserted town left behind the times of prosperity once this town enjoyed in prewar Japan. This town is deserted after energy revolution from coal to oil.

There's a utility to be left behind the times.

     

My ex ex girlfriend who was 4 years senior to me once confessed her defect is her impossibility of love. She said she can't love anyone. She repeatedly slept with other guys while we live together for about a year.

Other three guys - a young French guy, who once stayed in Japan. She spent a month in Lyon while we are still in love. One Japanese guy who is the same age as hers. She had known him since the age 20. She married a friend of his, but actually she liked him. A guy who is five years senior to her. This love affair triggered off our separation in the end.

Her only contribution to me was I was able to separate from her without a problem. She might have wanted, but I not.

On the other hands, my current common-law wife. I found her in tears when I suggested a temporary separation. I couldn't stay her alone. Now I realised it is hard to separate from her. This is another inconvenience of competence in love.

   

We can't live on without love. We can't live on only love. I had wanted to acquire an objective of love for a long time. And now I started thinking I need another objective of love once I started living with my love.

It's safe to keep on loving self. It's dangerous to start loving someone other than yourself.
I can't say I love you to one whom I love. It's because of the danger of loving others.

I couldn't ask even her name. She left me for somewhere.

By bullet train Nozomi superexpress it takes just 15 minutes from my lodging to my hometown, which is 34 miles away. It takes 2 or 3 minutes to make Earl grey, my favourite tea I often have. I refreshed myself today. I had a lot of things for two days this weekend. We are busy this special season. I stick to it again tomorrow.

You may do it.-- that's what I am often told in my workplace.

For them 'do' means the same as 'live'. Probably we are asking 'May we live?'
'You may do it.' means ' You may live' in their context.

You cannot divide and rule unless you have enough power. That's why Romans succeeded to do it. I was able to observe in a company we have direct employees and dispatched labourers and the former watch the latter. A workplace is successfully ruled without watching by employers.

About 30,000 dispatched labourers lost their job recently. There is a difficulty in employing a dispatched labourer permanently. I hope the regulations of dispatched labour as in that of before 2004. Only 8 special jobs used to allowed to hire a dispatched labourer before 2004, now the number of jobs is 24.

After all they all will be fired. In the end this move will lead to the end of dispatched labour.

You may go home earlier than a regular hour. That's what my colleague said. I don't want to work less than 8 working hours in a day. Oftentimes we are forced to leave the workplace before working 8 hours, owing to a current recession. Am I glad? Yes, if I can get a wage of 8 working hours by working less than 8 working hours. But things are not. I feel disappointed if I cannot work for 8 hours.

This is the paradoxical untruth. It is paradoxical at a glance and also it is not truth. One of my supervisors many years ago said it's good for the sake of you to choose 6 hours working in a day instead of 7.5 hours in a day because I can work many days -5 as opposed to 4 in a week. Total working hours in a week was 30 those days. This is also paradoxical untruth. My supervisor recommended 6 hours to me because it's convenient for the company.

Many years ago one of my colleage who only finished the course in junior high school told me those who need to learn more go to high school. Those who finished high school need to study more go to colleage. Therefore those who merely finish junior high are wiser than others. This seems paradoxical but truth.

     

After working about a year I feel more and more the limitations of being a dispatched labourer. I can't always work 8 hours in a day. I have to do whatever they command. I cannot speak out my opinion, suggestions. I have to take a day off without compensations when no lines operate.

How hideous this situations are! I intend to be employed directly next time. We don't know anything unless we do. It was not totally useless experience.

Humans can become whoever, can get accustomed to any environment. - word of Dostoevskii

I came here Kokura to start a new life with a woman. She became my common-law wife. About one year has passed. I want to move back to Hakata where my house is located. Because I've got many friends there. I need to make up my mind early next year.

I'm not sure whether she agrees to move with me. She has a job and needs to keep in touch with her three kids here.

Legally speaking I am still a husband of a woman whom I got married to fourteen years ago. I am not a public figure. This fact belongs to my personal things.

A couple of days ago I wrote this musings and kept in my draft. Today again I asked her whether she moves with me. She said yes.

I need to find a job there. It's relatively easy to find a job but hard to keep on working the same job.

If we have a lot of free time and little money, we tend to be disciplinary. Disciplinary itself is a favourable word. We don't even try to be disciplinary if we are busy and earn a lot of money. We are disciplinary in nature.

As our factory gets free time more, our any deed is checked. Now it became supervisor's job.

I've got two wives. One is my legal wife and the other my common-law wife.

Legally speaking I am still a husband of a woman whom I got married to fourteen years ago. We separated after 3 years of cooperation. After nearly 5 years of separation once we divorced. But I agreed to remarry her after 6 month period of divorce since I couldn't pay $30,000 alimony. Divorce is not easy at all in our country and marriage has much to do with economy. She has been gladly receiving some benefit from a part of my income.

I am not a public figure and I don't regret my past. This fact belongs to my personal things.

I met my current common-law wife nearly three years ago. I started a new life with her one year ago here in Kokura.

I hadn't explain much about it and I had been roughly using the word 'My wife' in both cases. I've got to add I have been keeping a very good relations with my wives, which means my legal wife remains to be one of my best friends.

My recent dream on having a physical relationship with a friend of my legal wife reminds me of my being unable to banish my past event at all.

No one realise how big the meaning of marriage is before marrying someone, but everyone realises when they think about divorce. Because everyone wants to gain something but no one wants to lose anything.

Humans can become whoever, can get accustomed to any environment. - word of Dostoevskii

I came here Kokura to start a new life with a woman. She became my common-law wife. About one year has passed. I want to move back to Hakata where my house is located. Because I've got many friends there. I need to make up my mind early next year.

I'm not sure whether she agrees to move with me. She has a job and needs to keep in touch with her three kids here.

I am on very good terms with my wife.
Last night I had a dream of sleeping with her best friend. She is very pretty. We have been in good friendly relationship through my wife.
I have been very loyal to my wife. Is it my hidden desire to have intimate relation with her. I felt shocked!