Well, unless the LA USPS goes 2 for 2, i'm pretty sure that channel one got my tape. I'm pretty psyched. They better call soon, and i know that i'm not going to get the job, but still..... hoping is what keeps me alive.

I'm going to try to articulate how excited/nervous/filled with antici--------pation i am today.

Let me break down what channel one is for those of you who don't know.

Channel One News is a 10 minute newscast (w/ 2 mintues of commercials) delivered by satalite to 8 million middle school and high school students every day. I'm applying ot be an anchor for them.

Channel one is owned by Primedia (who i think owns about dot com), you can go to channelone.com and watch their news.

I WANT THIS JOB SOOOOO BAD. I don't particularly want to do television news as a career. Its a downer, and you have to wear a suit, and yeah. With Channel One I could reach 8 Million kids (more than MTV does every day) and they'd be forced to watch my stories that affect [or effect] them. In effect [or affect], this is my dream job. I hope those people don't let me down.

Now you can see why i was pissed about the whole package incident.

yeah, so F*** the post office. I sent in my tape, and i had delivery conformation. According to DC, i had my channel one audition tape delivered on the thursday (week b4 thanksgiving). SOOOO.... today i check my mail... and i've got a package. I'm excited because i never get packages. I FIND MYSELF A BANGED UP PACKAGE THAT I SENT 2 WEEKS AGO.

F*** those LA postal workers. They suck.

Thanks goes out to my friends, my family, and other random people on this lovely thanksgiving day. I'm kind of sick, which sucks, but oh well.

Yeah, happy thanksgiving.

Randall

I feel like the biggest dork..... but i'm not VL.

It might have not been graceful, but this girl is way rad, and yeah, i'm still way dorky.

Randall

Yeah..... so i got shot down...... shat the freak down. I'm not quite the happiest person. I guess i pissed her off really bad, and now i got shot down. I read her ONLINE journal, i mean it is ONLINE, and PUBLIC. I didn't think it would be a big deal..... but i guesses it was?

oh well, so much for not being VL.

HOLY CRAP!

that sucked. This guy that works at the computer lab, the same lab as me, just talked to me about the advantages of OSS, like i didn't know. He then spouted off some bullshit about how churches should sponsor oss, and it was driving me f***ing nuts. I said f*** because of it. I never say f***. this is a weird day. He said that RMS should be the saint of OSS, and now i don't want to talk to him ever again.

yeah, so don't say f***.

Randall

Holy poo..... I have the biggest smile on my face ever. I don't think i've ever had a girl like me, its really weird. I'm so happy now. I just feel really awkward that its now, with the whole possibility of either of us moving.

wait, i need to quote stuff so that you'll see why i'm grinning. It probably won't mean jack to you guys, but yeah, read it anyways.

[quote]
like.. the whole last month ive made it a point to take our trash out when he comes home from work, or ive made it a point to find excuses to go up there. how old am i again? 18, no im 8. seriously, we started hanging out a bit more the last few weeks, and i totally like it. but i feel myself shying up a bit when im around him, or alone with him.
[/quote]

=)!!!! I feel so happy. I totally dig her, and she totally digs me, but its so hard. ITS SOOOOOO HARD. I want this channel one job sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo bad, and i probably won't get it. AND, she might have to move out which would be crappy^Nth. so while i'm hoping for this LA job, i don't think i'm really going to get it, which will be a relief, but if i do get it, it will be way cool too. I"M SO FREAKING CONFUSED!!!!!!

[quote]
just got done with class! woop woop! this entire day ive been totally frustrated about the boy situation. this girl, chelsea (sp?) in my english class kept asking if i was dating the boy that she saw me with (meaning randall). i was waiting for the bus (pepper spray in hand) and pari and kim drive by and pick me up, and they both ask me the same thing. WTF? i dont get it? and its been happening randomly alot lately, jeff upstairs, brittney, her roommates, and some random girl ive never even MET that lives in my building. no, as a matter of fact we are not together.
[/quote]

Why has everyone been asking amy and not me? I feel so betrayed!!! =P just joking. Its weird, because i totally like this girl, and i really have since she said she was into the weez (weezer).

DUDE, and another positive is that she bought me the coolest poster of all time. I'm a spongebob squarepants freak (no, i'm not gay, obviously by this journal) and she found like the cooooolest poster ever. yeah, she's definetly a keeper.

I just wish i wasn't so wussy and could communicate directly instead of through this silly journal. I am an inept emo loser!!! GO ME!!

oh yeah, one more quote i found interesting, and ironic. I took one of those online IQ tests, and my IQ is 133, so i'm borderline gifted genius? or something, anyways, my type is visual mathemetician, and they had something funny to say about that.

[quote]
Did you know?

60% of Visual Mathematicians wait for the other person to make the first move on a date.

[/quote]

ISN'T THAT THE IRONY!!!

yeah, so ms. seedless grapes, you're my hero, and i hope you read this.

Oh man..... i totally hate this because i feel crappy.

Girls think that guys are confusing, and vice versa. For once, i think that i'm wrong. This is only like the 2nd girl that i've completley dug, and i'm kind of dropping the ball as it were.

I'm the one sending huge mixed signals, and i'm really sorry about that. Girls reading this, if you ever see a guy and thinks he likes you, he probably does. Mixed signals are a guy's way of confusing a girl, and i think i handle my newfound title pretty well.

So i totally like this girl, and we'll call her Ms. Seedless Grapes, and i think she digs me, yeah, hence the earlier journal entry.

She does dig me!! Go ME!!

Its hard to say why she digs me, i don't see what people see in me. I'm pretty well liked, and this confuses me. I'm so glad i made it out of high school as fast as possible, and with as much college done as i had done.

That made me more mature. I've had this saying, its called "adult communication", and very few college freshmen can achieve "adult communication", but for some reason i feel exempt from that statistic. i'm 18, yes, but i feel like i'm (insert favorite curse word for emphasis) 22-23, well maybe not that old, but at least 20.

Oh yeah, on my list of people that rule, SueAnn, my sister, is #1. Her taste in music is odd. She's always the first person to like any record, and then it goes pop. Examples: Blink 182, Simple Plan, NFG, but its not just punk, look at Usher, Ashanti, Ja Rule, the list goes on and on (even that wanna be boyband LFO she scoped b4 the pop world went crazy w/ abercrombie and fitch song)

On another note, emo still rules, hip-hop still rules, punk still rules, pop is still..... ok..... country still sucks.

The Used have the delicious pleasure of being in my artist of the month catergory. If my sister hasn't heard of them yet, i'm pretty sure that she's going to. The fact that they're from Orem, UT, is irrelivant. they're freaking awesome, and you've gotta support your local scene, even if it is from so called "happy valley"

yeah, so if you're into Kazaa or p2p of some sort, i doubt they'd mind if you downloaded their single "A taste of Ink" or if you went to www.launch.com and listened (they're launch's emerging artist too)

yeah, so The Used - a Taste of Ink.

Oh yeah, in other Randall Saga news, i checked my tracking number, and the package [my resume, and video tape] is in LA w/ channel one. I'm pretty excited, and scared all at the same time. If i had the precious oppertunity to annoy 8 million 6-12th graders, i would be ever so glad.

--hopelessly inept emo loser, Randall

how many stories have you heard start out like that? well this is definetly one of those. There is this girl, and she's pretty freaking good looking, and pretty freaking awesome, and she likes emo. What more could a guy ask for? she likes a lot of stuff i like, and she seems to understand me when i'm depressed. Its pretty rad.

The only problem is that i might be moving. OR, she might be moving, OR a combination of the two. yeah, that sucks.

Oh yeah, you know whats freaking awesome? Channel One, the network owned by primedia, has an opening for an anchor. So i sent in my tape and the sort, we'll see what happens. Its in LA, a far far distance away from Ogden, Utah, so if i get it i will be happy minus the fact i don't get to ever see my family again. That part will suck.

yeah, so if you're the girl reading this that i like.... you gotta understand where i'm coming from. No one ever reads my journal, so i'm not really concerned, but we'll just hope.

-- addendum

oh yeah, there is another reason why i'm an inept emo fag as someone so graciously put it.... the whole i like being friends and what happens after if we're not friends. If i end up staying, i think that i'd want to risk this, because she is pretty rad.....

and rad is definetly a compliment in my pseduo-emo language

--addendum #2
in case you don't know, let me spell it out for you. OH MY HECK. HECK... DANG.... HECK... SEEDLESS GRAPES.....

ok, that should do :P

Just in case anyone reads this, i'm Randall, I'm 18 and go to Weber State University. I work at some computer labs, and i'm a pretty good combination of geek and communications major. I am not one of those glassy eyed poindexters from days gone by, but i am a kid that is very into punk music, and used to be into skateboarding.

Just to let you know now, this journal might seem really really depressing. I've suffered clincal depression since i can remember, and now days its not as bad. I had a whole medicated phase for 9 months and it seems to have made me less volitile. i actually get depressed like a normal person now. Instead of weeks of crappy crap, i get a bad day. Its freaking awesome. I can't describe how nice it is to know that life doesn't suck.

Today was a blah day. I was really not feeling that great, and then later in the night it just got worse, not due to anything, i just kind of felt the squeeze of financial pressure building up, and i have two tests tomarrow, and i hope that i dont fail again in my media writing class.

Blogs are lame, unless you're a porn clerk which i would encourage everyone to read here . They're quite entertaining. Probably a lot more entertaining than my little blog will be.

Maybe someday i'll get famous, and people will look at my slashdot user account (assuming va/linux is still around) and get tremendous insight from what i'm saying. But then again, since i'm just said that sentance, it probably will never happen.

Oh yeah, and i always want someone to hear new music. I'm not just into punk, i'm into everything except for country. Today's artist of the moment is Thicke. His real name is Robin Thicke, and he is related to Alan thicke from growing pains (he's his son). He has some hot songs right now, even though most of the ones i find are just loops, they're good enough for him to be the artist of the moment.

Anyone who has used this journaling thing before, let me know what the deal is with the topic. I guess i can just comment on situations going down, and then when the whole fame thing comes around people will be really astounded about my thinking.

Anyways have fun. dextr0us -- randall

while i was previewing, i learned that you can't link in journals or something crappy. so everyone the porn clerks' stories are here at this web address
http://www.improvisation.ws/mb/showthread.php?s=&threadid=4475

they're hillerious. can i emphasize?