Journal L0stb0Y's Journal: Hardest day of my life 2
This morning (the first morning after Katie's brain surgery) was really tough, tougher (on me) than any day yet here at the hospital.
Katie needed to use the restroom this morning at about 6:30am. I have to help her, due to all the ivs - and given her weakened state. After she got off of the toilet she walked to the sink to wash her hands. I noticed she had a glazed look in her eyes, and she was just staring at herself in the mirror. A moment later she said softly "I feel dizzy"- I ran to her side (she was facing the sink) and grabbed her in a 'bear-hug' type position. Katie began to collapse, her eyes still open. At the same time she collapsed, she passed gas, a sign of her body shutting down. Her hands began to 'twitch' (not shake, like in a seizure, but twitch)- the combination of all the things going on: the 'twitching,' the open eyes, the lack of response, the fact that because of her position I had to grab her from the side so I could not feel her breathing or a pulse, the passing of gas- all lead me to believe that she had died-
I held Katie for about 35 seconds, trying to figure out what to do- we were alone in the room, and I believed that she had just died. I eventually ran to the nurse call button, and told them that I needed a nurse immediately. I ran back to Katie (I think I was in shock)- and Katie began to come-to.
The nurse helped me get Katie back into her bed, she was still quite dis-oriented. After we got her back in her bed, I broke down. I had really believed that my wife had just died in my arms. I will never forget that feeling, or this day.
oh my (Score:1, Interesting)
one day my brother was ill and my father and i had to help him wash his hands in the bathroom sink. as we were washing, his eyes glazed over and then rolled back into his head. his hand started twitching too and like, he grabbed me, and i knew something was seriously wrong. he passed out but we caught him as he fell. it was so fucked up because i thought he had had a stroke or died or something right there - i was shaking and had a terrible rush of