L0stb0Y's Journal: Rollercoaster: The Yin-yang of hospital life...

If it is true that you cannot know the sweet if you do not know the bitter, then good information from our doctors will be a sweet of a magnitude unknow to us previously...

The cardio Dr. came in this morning to let us know that her heart is doing well. This is good news, especially since the chemo that she is on is Arsenic based, and has nasty heart related problems it can bring on... ...as always when one system seems to be doing well, we find problems with others: the arsenic however seems to be causing problems with the central nervous system. Double vision, and a 'palsy' like lack of control of half of her face. She still smiles, and makes jokes, saying that now she smiles like Katie Holmes from Dawson's Creek (she has always made fun of Katie Holmes' "half-smile")-

My wife is such an example of strength and positive thinking - an amazing woman.

The results from the MRI that they took this morning actually show an improvement...something that I was really worried about. I was afraid that her CNS problems that have been surfacing would be manifest in negative results from this MRI...

Her levels were however low enough today that we weren't allowed to continue with her much needed chemo- a minor set back...but a set back none the less...(if we miss too many days in this chemo run we will need to start the entire process over again...)

The boss called today, and told me that I better not even think about showing up at work for a while, and he is going to continue to pay me my regular salary- there is a god. He went further to say that the company has set up a Charitable Donation account for us, to help cover the costs of medical/hospital/doctor bills...

It turns out that yet again there is a nation-wide shortage of fresh blood...I have been encouraging anyone and everyone to go donate blood or platelets...several times we've had blood on order (needed desperately) and not have it show up here at the hospital for several days...they won't take my blood, and the doctor won't let her brothers and sister giver her blood, because it could cause her to build antibodies against them, and we will need them in the near future for her bone marrow transplant.

Amazingly, spirits are high tonight. She's sleeping better tonight than she has in a long time. She prays for everyone that prays for her. Simply amazing, even in a state like this she worries about being a burden or imposition on others. I can't imagine what a major ass I would be in her situation, complaining or being angry...but she is amazing. I am very lucky to have married her (going on two months now)

Awww...

[Gsus411]

I'm praying for you two. I'm glad things are getting as good as they can be in such a situation.