Chicks_Hate_Me's Journal: Feeling Bad

Met a girl at the movies
She was so beautiful
She was the one for me
So I asked her if I could call her at home
She said "No thanks just give me my popcorn"
So I followed her into the theater
And found a seat that was right behind her
Smelled her hair, smelled her sweater
And then I touched myself!

-- Nerf Herder - "Feeling Bad"

Another interesting day. Hyped on Red Bull and cigarettes for lunch I was yet again on the prowl. My victims? 2 females this time (!!!) I was bored on my lunch break broiling in the sweet California Sun, I noticed a cute girl in a professional dress sitting on a bench at the park. My friend told me I should put the moves on her, so once my friend went back inside, I started to plan my attack. I sat on the bench next to her, and talked about how hot it was (and this is when I started to get nervous again.) I asked her if it was cool if I sat next to her on the bench, she seem kind of reluctant but I was already half way there before she said ok. She was very cute with an excellent body, I found out she graduated from college and now was working for an insurance company (way way waaay out of my league.) Eventually she brought up her boyfriend (Abort! Abort!) and I knew I had no chance. Overall she was a very nice girl, and I'm glad I had the chance to talk to her. So I went to the corner store to buy cigarettes and noticed a very cute latin looking chick smiling as she walked by. After I came out of the store I had the sudden urge to follow her. I almost turned around but I kept on following her until she went into a book store, as I was walking in she was walking out, she said "hi" to me. Now what was I going to do? I decided to walk out and yelled, "Excuse me! Do I know you?" we started talking and she gave me her name. I started shaking, and it kept on getting worse and worse, eventually she said she had to go and she left. I don't know if she was freaked out by me or she really had to go.

A part of me feels like a creep, I mean, what would you do if a weird looking guy started following you and starts shaking when he approaches you? You'd think he's some cracked out weirdo trying to rape you, and part of me felt this way. The other part of me was full of confidence. I don?t think I've ever approached a woman that I didn't know and started talking to her. For me, this is really practice. I need to get use to women and once I see one I really like, I'll have guts enough to approach her and not be nervous. Chicks really dig confidence and I don't have any. Maybe someday I'll have enough confidence to ask for Coffee Girl's digits...

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