tankdilla's Journal: I currently don't know anyone that can feel me

I'm sure there are many out there in the world right now that are similar to me, but I don't know them. Or rather i'm not in close proximity to them now. The closest proximity right now is this computer and internet connection, which lets me know there are others the same as me, others as ignorant as me, and others way more brilliant than me. But still let me describe my angst. It's been in my mind for awhile now, ever since graduation, but it hasn't materialized so much until now. I'm describing my computer configuration to my sister, while my music is playing. So I bring her attention to the music, playlist open on Winamp. And I say, "Isn't this cool?" demonstrating the different configurations of my sound card that i've had for about 6 months now, but only now i'm checking out all of the different settings. And so I'm describing how much I like the music I just downloaded. And she looks at my playlist to see what the song is called, and says, "Oh, Tupac 'Staring Through My Rearview' ." And I laugh and point out that the current song playing is actually Beethoven's 7th Symphony 2nd Movement. I like to listen to a variety of music, as i'm sure most everyone does. But unfortunately, I'm out of college now, where I could come across many different people with similar music interests. But aside from that, for some reason, my frustrations could be spelled out so much more clearly by her observation of Tupac and Beethoven being on the same playlist. And that's the point of this journal. Right now, I don't know many (any) people that might be on the same wavelength as me. I know there more people out there but I haven't come across them. People who've grown up in a "ghetto" surrounding, but still somehow got introduced to more "smarty" types of elements. And more specifically, not just smarty elements, but computer/hacking related elements. I came across a lot of street-savvy people in college, and i still keep in touch with them. And a lot were really smart. But simply put, there are not a lot of people that i'm around right now (after college) that might have something like tupac and beethoven on the same playlist. Both were geniuses in their field, and I know there are a lot of others out there that recognize this. But I guess the frustration is that it's hard to come in contact with these people, because not many would go around bragging this. For one, it's not really a compelling conversation topic. But basically, it'd be nice to come across someone that wasn't a) a total nerd and b) an ignorant street kind of person. I've found a cool medium between the two, but I find it hard to lean too hard in either direction, because I'm neither. So I feel stuck in the middle, tethering to either side when i'm too close to a side.