Guipo's Journal: I dont think it will be easy

So kim and I are going to be just friends. for a while. Until I'm legally divorced, and we feel ready (and or a unspecified amount of time). This is a mutual agreement, that actually now that I read it sounds alot worse than it is.

The fact of the matter is that we are both crazy for each other. We constantly smile when we talk to each other, and really, if we had the choice would be around each other all the time. Really, I find myself wanting to know more and more about her every day, and wanting to get to be with her.

Thats the hard part. Because of this self imposed restriction on dating, or doing anything that is like dating, or reciving any benifits from dating, we're basically just limiting ourselves to being friends. Thats hard, because she absolutly drives me bonkers. And from what I can tell, I do the same to her. I want to spend more time with her, and do more things with her, and just be with her.

So if I'm able to do that, will we remain just friends, until whatever unspecified date. I really dont know. I know she drives me crazy. I know that I really want to hang out with her. I know that she digs the heck out of me.

Obviously a big part of it is the divorce. Thats a big no no. I mean, spiritually, and mentally, I'm already divorced, just not legally. So we wait. Still hard. And then afterwars we'll wait till unspecified time. And that will be hard, because basically, I already wish I could show affection to her.

And then the sensible part of me rushes in....

Its really not that long of a time in the grand scheme of things, and when it does happen, you'll know where its going for sure, because you will know each other. She's a sweet, goregous, smart, funny, thoughful girl well worth the wait, and she wants you too. Just do this right Daniel, and you'll be happy. Dont be too overzealous and screw this up. This is something I so dont want to screw up

I'm just a worrier. Its funny, I could completly be worrying about something, and Kim is so uber cool that its not even a big deal to her. I could get used to that. Worry less. That'd be nice. Anywho, gonna go.