Journal FortKnox's Journal: A Whole New FK.... 15
As I mentioned last week, my wife left Thursday morning for a wedding in Philly. So I've been by myself for a few days now (and even more, since she's snowed in and can't return until Wednesday or later). Its made me see something...
I'm not the person I thought I was.
I always thought of myself in my college form. After college was marriage, then Joey graced us with his presence. I never had a chance to sit back and see who I was. I've done that now. So its not like I've all of a sudden changed, its just that I've changed slowly without knowing.
I just came to realize quite a bit of stuff. I always craved time to myself, but now that I have it, I dunno what to do with it. I only have two games on my computer (one is "The Sims" for my wife, the other is UT so I can play infiltration). I realized that I haven't upgraded my computer in several years and can't play any new games even if I went out to buy them. I realized that I can only sit through 2 full football games on my 'cube. I realized that when I come home, I routinely kiss my wife and play with Joey. I realized that I depend on my family.
Its quite wierd. Almost as if I've made this major breakthrough in my life and am now a new person. Maybe I am now that I know who I am?
I'm not the person I thought I was.
I always thought of myself in my college form. After college was marriage, then Joey graced us with his presence. I never had a chance to sit back and see who I was. I've done that now. So its not like I've all of a sudden changed, its just that I've changed slowly without knowing.
I just came to realize quite a bit of stuff. I always craved time to myself, but now that I have it, I dunno what to do with it. I only have two games on my computer (one is "The Sims" for my wife, the other is UT so I can play infiltration). I realized that I haven't upgraded my computer in several years and can't play any new games even if I went out to buy them. I realized that I can only sit through 2 full football games on my 'cube. I realized that when I come home, I routinely kiss my wife and play with Joey. I realized that I depend on my family.
Its quite wierd. Almost as if I've made this major breakthrough in my life and am now a new person. Maybe I am now that I know who I am?
Now (Score:1)
Re:What are you, 12? (Score:2, Insightful)
The only loser here is you. Come back when you've got some viagra.
Re:What are you, 12? (Score:2)
Sometimes I wich AC just went away alltogether. Some people have to start assuming their responsibilities and their opinions !
Hey moderator, P.S (Score:2)
It takes more than moderation to stop me from calling you a spineless wimp.
You make euglena look highly evolved.
(ohmigod that was the worst geek insult I've ever seen!)
Re:Now (Score:1)
Oh, and pick up Delta Force: Land Warrior. [novalogic.com] Should run on your machine.
Remember what agression felt like.
Ya know what? (Score:3, Insightful)
That happened to me, too. One day it suddenly hit me: Oh my god, I'm a grown-up!
That's the way life is (Score:1)
Rare is the sudden change.
so, whats the conclusion? (Score:2)
But whats important is, do you like who you are? Is there anything else you'd also like to be? How does this change in perception of yourself change your outlook on the future?
If its not too much to ask, I know I'd be interested in all of the above!
Re:so, whats the conclusion? (Score:2)
Very much so. More mature, more family oriented.
Is there anything else you'd also like to be?
Honestly, I'm still getting used to who I am than what I could be, so as of right now, I can't think of anything else I'd like to be.
How does this change in perception of yourself change your outlook on the future?
I always wanted to be a game developer. I just don't see it anymore. This is pretty big for me. I had set myself up to do just that. Now I dunno what is going to happen to me. I dunno where I'll end up, or how to 'stay happy' with my job. I'll have to take some time and think about this one, now. I've never seen my future as being inconclusive, honestly. There is a guy at work (also a family man) who was interested in trying out developing a game, so who knows... I may end up being a game designer after all...
Re: (Score:1)
Change... (Score:2)
Change, I think, is inevitable. And it's a good thing. Life moves on, and so do we. :)
Re:Change... (Score:1)
Did you know every cell in your body is replaced at least once every 3 years?
20 inches... (Score:1)
Yesterday wasnt too bad - I was able to drive around University City and get to a basketball game, but then stayed at my g/f's last night only to have the car stuck there today, necessitating a walk home, mostly using the streets themselves and not sidewalks.
I think you said your wife drove. They said on the news that the PA Turnpike is virtually shut down, though it's not actually closed. The governer called into the news show I was watching, and he was advised not to drive into Harrisburg today from Philly. It might be better now, though if they were to get started now - it would still take a slow drive to get to western PA and into OH. Might be best for them to wait until tomorrow and start moving after the morning rush hour clears up a lot of the snow.
infiltration (Score:2)
Me: (Running around and dying over and over)
Someone else: What a noob
Me: Hmmm, this isn't that much like CS!
Other people:
(Later)
Me: (Running around and shooting wildly at anything that moves...then dying)
Teammate: Cyrano, use T to talk
Me: what's up?
Teammate: You just team killed an admin. It's usually a good idea to apologize?
Me: Huh? Oh well.
Teammate: LEAVE NOW
So you see, infiltration is not going so well. Do you have any tips because there isn't much difference (as I can see) from CS. People seem to just run around at top speed until they see someone, then shoot them (always hitting somehow).
Since hitting from a fron a range is next to impossible, a fave tactic seems to be to use the silenced MP5 at close range. Not much else seems to work.
Also, why do mounted machine guns use inverted mouse aiming??? It makes things really difficult. More realism, I suppose.