mwarps's Journal: Been gone a long time

I've been reading back on some of these journals I've written and realised how much of a fool I've been so far in my life. It's not hard to see where I've fucked up, dropped the ball or just plain not followed through.

Oh the fuck well. Don't care. Next?

Co-op at ** is done. Not going to be saving boobies anymore unless they realise that dangling a job in front of someone and then yanking it away is not a good way of keeping employees and definitely not a good way to grow organic talent. If they offer an engineering position, either straight out or after a year, I'll take it, otherwise, I'm out.

The girl from a few entries back, Jealousy Inc, got married last month. I wonder how she is doing. Her new husband is an idiot. I wonder if she'll ever realise that. She's not the brightest bulb in the box either, marrying someone with a kid, expecting their lives to be completely normal with the kids biological mother still with 50% custody(I think) .. I feel sorry for her, for her family, for the pain that they are going to go through within the next few years. It's sad, really.

I can't conceptualise how I dragged my own shit out for 4 fucking years with the ex. That was .. stupid, brutal and really just .. bad for my brain, and the brains of most of my friends who got tired of hearing about it. Long done and over.

Spent a lot of time in late 05 and early 06 partying my face off. Should have done that in 98 and 99. I guess I'm just a little behind the curve. I've gained quite a tolerance for alcohol, too. Gone are my days of being the one beer queer, unless I'm going for championship drunk on an empty stomach.