lyoz's Journal: an interview

Puuch: "Ok we are gonna start now. Did you fill the form that I gave you?"

Juuth: "Yes, here it is."

p: "Good. I am gonna start with some personal questions. You dont need to be completely honest. And try Not to think too much about it. Is that ok?"

j: "sure."

p: "When was the last time you talked with your dad?"

j: "A few days back. He called me."

p: "Does he call you often?"

j: "No. He calls me from time to time, especially when I havent met him in a while. But I dont expect him to call."

p: "Do you want him to call you?"

j: "I suppose so. I have to keep in touch with him. I owe it to the old man. And I would rather prefer short phone converation than a long face to face talk."

p: "Whats wrong with that?"

j: "Nothing. Nothings wrong. Except that we never really did that when I was growing up. And I dont feel that I can talk with him. So most of the times its kind of one sided, and we both feel the gap. He is getting old."

p: "Do you love him?"

j: "I guess so. He is my dad. He is a nice guy. Just that... just that he expects different things from me, and .... I dont know. Too conventional. I dont want to be conventional. I dont want responsibility. I am a coward."

p: "What about ur mother?"

j: "I dont know my mother. Can we NOT talk about her?"

p: "Ok. Now, lets try something different. I want you to talk to me in vague and abstract terms."

j: "What do you mean?"

p: "Well lets say I ask you 'What do you like for breakfast?'. Dont tell me what food u like. Just think about that time of the day, or something particular about breakfast, and tell me whatever comes to your mind."

j: "Like the details from the Morning Show?"

p: "No, not the details. Maybe just how the show makes you feel"

j: "Its just a show. I watch it cause my roomate is in love with the hostess. Its really silly. I wish we could each our breakfast quite"

p: "Good. Thats exactly what I am talking about. So, what scares you?"

j: "You mean like a horror movie or a book?"

p: "No, nothing of that sort. I am not asking you to remmeber when and why you got scared."

j: "Ok, I know what you mean. People scare me. Not everyone though, most of them are plain annoying. But the ones who can write. And I dont mean Manto or Shakespear here. Just ppl that I know, that I could run into every now and then, especially average looking extraordinary girls. And not everyone. Just some of them, who are like all abstract, and try to make simple things sound abstract and difficult"

p: "Why do they scare you?"

j: "I don't know. Maybe cause I can relate to that. Being phoney, average looking, extraordianry... u know. "