Pervertus's Journal: Hoping for her to divorce

There's that girl, who is really fat, and according to her looks, she must be very unlikely to get a husband, or even a boyfriend. She got a load of other health problems too.

But she's smart and I enjoyed so much being with her. Walking with her to the sea was the most fun things I ever did. I also enjoyed touching her, although she decided not to meet me anymore because I touched her boobs (after she sent me mixed signals)..

And now she's married - with a religious husband who won't even allow her to shake hands of other people.

All her life she wanted to be married, and have kids. And the impossible happened. Someone agreed to marry her. And it's someone with a serious job.

So I am happy for her.

And yet, the id part of me keeps wishing she divorces. I read her blog hungrily. It is interesting nontheless, but I try finding little signs and hints for relationship problems, hoping it'll lead to divorce and then I could be with her again.

I wouldn't want to be her boyfriend, but she's the first person ever that I felt love for.. indeed, I can honestly say that I love her.

PS: Shitting still hurts, as if I'm dumping stones. I'll have to go to a proctologist. Ouch!